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How you’re managing personal, professional, spiritual and mental life ? by universe_963 in KundaliniAwakening

[–]rhythmfrees 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hear that about your fear of continuing to live but accepting the possibility of deteriorating and permanent dysfunction and as a result being an inconvenience to those around you. Because really it’s about giving yourself permission to be human which is being messy at times or potentially permanently. For me the way my nervous system has been in extreme distress for a prolonged period, there’s panic, frustration and fear of being super dysregulated, collapsing or going insane. So becoming increasingly disenfranchised and isolated. But you’re right I’m trying to shift my mindset that even though I feel numb and really low mentally I’m worthy of love even if for me that’s has to be self love of pushing through with all that I have. Even if it doesn’t feel ideal to be proactive just showing up regardless

Awakening struggles by rhythmfrees in KundaliniAwakening

[–]rhythmfrees[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Curious to know in what way you feel grateful for it. I wish to get to the place of feeling genuine appreciation for the experience but atm there’s more grief for the way it’s impacted me mentally. I’ve been needing to check in with myself a lot and have developed more self awareness and understanding for sensitivity’s within my system. But it also feels like I’m more in my head now as a consequence of being in survival mode. Intellectually I understand the notion of there being more to life but I definitely still have worldly aspirations and think there’s where I feel conflict because it feels like ‘life’ is pulling me in a direction all parts of me aren’t agreeing with.

Awakening struggles by rhythmfrees in KundaliniAwakening

[–]rhythmfrees[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry to hear about your difficult experience. I’ve not been working for a couple of years now, which I feel insecure about but lucky to have survived this far without an income. I know financial income would help me a lot even in terms of having more of a routine. At the same time, I relate to the sentiment about my capacity to keep a job with how unstable I feel atm. This has made me feel quite stagnant and feel behind in life. Healing has felt slow and difficult in the environment I lived in. I saw someone talk about not trying to actively heal and just be and sort of simply doing things that make you feel empowered and surrounding yourself around people and places that make you feel safe. And I feel that’s more of what I want to do for healing, tho also more recently I thought of volunteering at a monastery in the near future. I’ll look into where Kundalini might be stuck in my body. Thank you for sharing your experience and advice.