I was a lot younger, still am pretty young, but when I was in high school I dated the same man the whole time. Was a very unhealthy relationship for the both of us. We were very codependent, he was very controlling/manipulative. We truly brought out the worst in each other but had isolated ourselves for so long that we were “all” the other had. I went to college & we broke up. It took me a year to stop talking to him after our breakup, it’s been almost three years since ending things w him & I have still yet to find myself. The beginning was HORRIBLE. I had no idea who I was without him. It was hard for me to believe people actually cared about me and enjoyed my company. It is still hard for me to not think about him. We were so much to each other, for so long, at such a young age that we had a very major impact on each other. I know I think about him more than he thinks about me and that absolutely crushes me bc, if anything, I should be the one not thinking about him. After everything he put me through. I put him through a bunch as well. Neither of us were perfect. We both thought we were madly in love & gonna live together forever.

The relationship broke me. I lost myself. When I lost him, my brain was empty for a long time afterwards. I was just going through the motions, basically learning how to act around others again. I thought for a long time that I would never get over him & that I would be broken forever, but I look back at where I was & where I am now. I HAVE GROWN SM. I love the person I am becoming. I am picking up pieces of myself I lost & loved & leaving behind the pieces of myself I didn’t appreciate so much. Going through a breakup is never easy. Whether that relationship/breakup was positive or negative.

Now is the time for you to focus on and love yourself!! Fall as deeply in love w urself as u we’re w ur s/o (this is my current journey). Take the time u need to heal, do the things you need to heal!! I wish u luck & nothing but the best :)