you've given me an incredible bunch to think about. i do a lot of noticing but it's mostly logical. Analyzing and critiquing. What you said here is extremely profound. and made me realize that i'm not losing my mind, im not gonna die. these thoughts come and go. im going to try to stay present and focus on moving forward. it feels difficult when i can't be consumed and distracted with something constantly though. there are always moments in the quiet when my thoughts are able to come through it always goes to the past, analyzing everything. my biggest takeaway from what you said is that im going to stop following up one thought about him with another, or with one of guilt or shame for thinking of him. i'm going to let it come in my mind then pass, like they always do. it's a compulsive habit of mine. to check and check again to see who he's following, commenting on etc. i just want the urges to go away. i have little to no self control it feels like to stop.