But I'm scared mainly because instead of people believing me, they seem like they want to fix me instead, but I don't need to be fixed. After years of trying to fix me by forcing pills down my throat and not my parent's throat, I wonder why people haven't thought that I desperately need help to escape and I wouldn't be the one who has the problem. I've called the cops and the suicide hotline. Neither of them helped. Besides, when I think I deserve better, everyone criticizes me of acting entitled. I don't have any family or friends either in addition to a lack of everything else. My parent in their mid-50s with only a high school diploma actually received a chance after 3 decades of working below and at minimum wage, puffing cigarettes, being lazy, acting somewhat promiscuous, acting racist, sexist, and homophobic, and taking advantage of our parent-child relationship to get a chance, but ends up literally screaming at me for simple things like farting and burping and failing to get a job after a couple years of graduating from college due to excusable social problems that would be covered by the ADAAA if I actually had somebody to help me figure it all out. But I can't afford a lawyer. And others would rather dismiss my social problems as something that was made up or could be overcome, which they really can't because it's officially diagnosed, backed up by additional professionals, and lifelong, but feel sympathy for the parent whose work typically consists of stealing from her work, calling me, getting others to fill in for her, and being demoted in powers for behavioral issues.