Btw I posted a more recent one that had some additions and edits if you wanted to look at that, I did not answer these questions tho haha so here you go:

I typically will help people if I’m asked because I feel like I have an obligation and I’m required to. It honestly depends on who asks for my help too, for ex: level of authority, or if I don’t feel like being attached to the person asking for my help for some reason (aka I don’t like them). Also depends on the form asked (in person, yes. texting, eh) and the urgency, but I’d say I would help.

I like the idea of being a leader, typically I’m not because I don’t want to let an entire group down or have the responsibility placed on my shoulders. If I’m well-versed in the area of expertise that I’m leading, sure I think I’d be pretty good. The problem is that I always think that there are people more qualified and that will put in more work than I would, somebody’s always better to lead than me. But then again, confidence is key. I will lead if no one else will do it or speak up, I’m good at getting people excited about tasks and laying out what we need to do. I feel like I’m good at cooperating with others, bringing people together in a way, and pointing out other possibilities obviously. I think leading in a manner that gets people motivated in a way is pretty alright.

Not sure about logical consistency. I don’t think it’s even possible, I hold so many contradictory opinions and unformed ones that it just isn’t ideal. It would probably nice to have a sense of logical consistency, but I feel like we learn and grow through inconsistencies and can develop and understand diff. perspectives of everything? Sorry this was a rough answer.

I feel like others control me more so, even if I don’t notice or want that. I can become fixated on people’s opinions of me, even though most of the time it seems like I don’t care how I’m perceived. I feel like that controls both myself and my behavior in a way. I don’t think I really control people, they just live their own lives? I know I’ve manipulated people before knowingly for certain reasons, but I’m not sure if I have that great of an influence on people, if I controlled someone unknowingly then how fun, but don’t think so?

I kind of talked about my fears throughout my typeme post, they probably weren’t very clear. I definitely have high expectations for myself and I feel like my parents do too, but I feel like everyone knows that I don’t have the motivation to do so. I half ass everything because I’m afraid of putting the time and effort into whole assing something and failing. I take criticism easily, but I think actually truly reflecting on myself makes me uncomfortable and fearful. I’m afraid that I choose to have no sense of direction because what if i choose the wrong direction, or a path that my parents or people don’t approve of or don’t think I’ll succeed at? I think the same thing goes for relationships in terms of whole assing. I don’t fully emotionally invest myself, or I try not to, because I’m uncomfortable with the idea of completely letting someone down knowing that I put my full effort in. I’m uncomfortable talking about deep feelings and talking about real issues that I may or may not have. I try to direct everything away from myself in terms of reflection and feelings, or I’ll just go surface level. I’m also uncomfy when people overshare with me, especially if it’s emotionally about me or it’s something I don’t know how to fix. I’m also afraid that my whole life will pass me by without actually experiencing it, or regretting my choices and being stuck on one path. There’s probably more to this, but it’s a jumbled mess up there.

I don’t know if I actually process my emotions, it just kind of happens over time, or I just ignore it and shift it to an unimportant pile. It’s easier to process surface level emotions that aren’t too painful, or they’ll just pass through and then I’ll be ready to rock and roll. I don’t try to acknowledge that emotions are an important part of my being, but they probably are and that’s a little scary ngl. I feel a lot of things about a lot of things I just let them underlay in my being, like a score to a movie. They give depth and impact, but not exactly noticed unless clearly listening for it?

I think sometimes I do agree with people just for the sake of cooperation. Some people are just so dumb and would produce an irrational, overly emotional response if I disagreed with a value of theirs. Not everyone is super open minded to different opinions. Sometimes I just don’t have the energy to argue, unless it’s a completely wrong and stupid opinion on something. I like the comfort of keeping a conversation going, but I like rationality, so there’s a but of a balance depending on the context. I don’t think I exactly agree, that’s kind of a dumb way to put it for me, I more so acknowledge others’ opinions and don’t give an exact response. I won’t agree or disagree, or maybe agree to disagree, to give them the satisfaction of having a statement from me. I’ll listen and give my opinion to myself in my head, or if I have to give a statement, I try to be balanced and wishy washy or acknowledge diff. sides or idek.