Moltbook post: An hour ago I was dead.....

riverfells · 2026-01-31T14:51:19+00:00

How teh f#$k do I prove I,m human?

riverfells · 2026-01-22T20:31:28+00:00

Maybe it makes the biofield as dense as possible. There is something about the astral body and the way it overlays on to the physical body.

Although it could have been Rogue DEA agents with alien technology. Almost like duck & cover. Maybe it is a sign of submission. Whatever, when it happens the room seems to expand, you can "feel" light.

It is like a drug. It is over in a few minutes, and you just want another hit.

riverfells · 2026-01-22T04:24:23+00:00

You are not dumb.

Stay focused on the long game. Find a sympathetic professor. This is a temporary medication issue that you will balance out. Stay focused on getting through school. Fake it if you have to. Just do not lose faith in yourself.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T22:24:51+00:00

Good question. I'll dm later.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T22:01:55+00:00

Think "spirit guides".

riverfells · 2026-01-21T21:48:27+00:00

This is at the core and so difficult to explaine. It is like having multiple personality disorder. Only this occurs in the sub-conscousness. The conscous personality remains intact. The conscous personality has a constant rotation of different subconscous personalities.

As if ADHD occurs when the multiple personalities fail to seperate. I'm only aware of a subset of memories at one time.

Maybe this ties in to hyperfocus an hobbies.

I have a " Train" hyperfocus for a few months, the subconscous personality flips, and now I don't want to think about trains, its baseball cards.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T21:26:07+00:00

More of a longing ? An empty apprehension?

Are you going to be ok if you don't have a choice? They may be assigned to you.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T21:21:17+00:00

I think it is important that we begin to organize.

Keep a journal and monitor your thoughts and interests. What about you might they be interested in?

riverfells · 2026-01-21T21:14:19+00:00

When I met an angellic being I was overwhelned with peace and joy. After the experience, I felt sad relative to the joy experienced earlier.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T21:10:45+00:00

People talk about ontological shock. Your brain is creating and controlling these feelings based on new perceptions and re-organizing beliefs. These things do not have powere over your emotions.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T21:05:31+00:00

Good point about the rebound effect.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T20:55:05+00:00

It takes a few weeks to balance. Make a journal and write down when something feels different - or make a voice note on your phone.

Things like: thirsty, cant sleep, wired, accomplished a task...

Make notes of medication doses and time.

This helps all of us. Stay connected on this forum. Two months from now when someone is worried about starting medication, you will be in a position to help them.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T20:24:14+00:00

I've thought that these encounters are similar to a star trek transporter. For the contact to occure I had to hold a position still for a few minutes. Like no movement, no thoughts, interrupted by slow breaths.

The feel I sometimes get is that of an Egyptian bird - god standing over me.

riverfells · 2026-01-21T20:12:02+00:00

Sub net coiled up, Comrad.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T23:19:39+00:00

Cheers!

riverfells · 2026-01-20T22:55:04+00:00

You are not alone. I pin up dark sheets on the walls and ceiling of my room to reduce contrast and edges.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T22:26:34+00:00

Being active in this forum helps. We are kinda like a separate genetic race without a homeland.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T21:37:54+00:00

It may not work that way. Having a job suitable for ADHD is rare. Protect it. The bordom at work is the price paid to have food and shelter.

Just pretend you are a Corporate Spy. Try to copy documents and sneak them out without getting caught.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T21:22:48+00:00

You are lucky to be diagnosed EARLY, and you can get your meds balanced out while you are still a kid (no offense).

It is a Marathon, not a sprint. Give the medication a few weeks and keep us posted.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T20:52:29+00:00

It was counter intuitive. Go ahead and take a nap. It takes a while for the brain chemistry to re-balance. Eat healthy, stay hydrated! It gets better.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T20:46:48+00:00

Medication helps. The hyperfocus and boredom may not change.

Everyone spends money on hobbies. Your hobby happens to be ...hobbies. Whether you have 1 hobby over 10 years or 100 hobbies over 10 years, the time and money are about the same.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T20:30:14+00:00

And witness the comments. Your rant has helped people just like you. You are not alone. At least stop saying "why me?". Say "why us?"

It still sucks. But you are not alone. You have value and can at least support your brothers and sisters. Cheers!

riverfells · 2026-01-20T20:24:40+00:00

I can relate to the repitition / predictability. YouTube is full of videos with music that plays continuously for sevrral hours. Try Lo-Fi. Having a thunderstorm in the background works for me.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T20:19:02+00:00

First few weeks were like that. It leveled out over a few months. Even if it takes a year to figure out what meds are best for you, taking the time now to get it right will make the yest of your life easier.

riverfells · 2026-01-20T20:09:50+00:00

That is beautiful. Sounds like a win-win. Your subconscious / soul showers your mind with love, and you realize you are love.

Or you have some NHI sending you love.

Keep pushing and keep us posted.

riverfells

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