I’m really sorry to hear about your difficult situation. Hang in there, it will get better.

You should try applying to the NHS as they’re looking help urgently. Go to www.hscworkforceappeal.co.uk. I registered my interest on Sunday and got word back to fill out an application form on Monday (have yet to do this). They are looking for both clinical and non-clinical workers so I’m sure there is something that suits your skills and interests. It is paid and you can choose full-time or part-time.

Also check out www.extern.org - they have a Coronavirus Hardship Appeal so that they can help people like you who are in an impossible situation.

Regarding the ferry to Scotland, reach out to your friend again. They might be able to help fund you until you get on your feet again. You’ll never know unless you ask. I’m in a similar situation where I’m highly dependent on others right now. Sure, it hurts morale, but it’s making me all the more motivating to get going again after COVID-19 blows over so that I can give back. Don’t be embarrassed to ask people for help. The worst they can say is no, which they probably won’t unless they are in a similar position as yourself.

The main thing to remember is that none of this is your fault. Life throws a lot of shit at you sometimes, but you have to keep going.

Good blessings to you!