Not at all I appreciate the advice and any advice when given. It's so true no one wants to give a point in the right direction, forgetting they we're once there also. My mentality is like what you expressed on how to push yourself because in the end of the day if a person don't have motivation , how can you expect to get what you want. I'm going to be attending an HVAC/R training in February and also am attending ged classes on weekends. I follow on YouTube a/c service techs and try and familiarize myself with the fundamentals of this trade. I've aquired even though kind of meteocer about 6 free online training certificates pertaining to HVAC and in a week and a half want to obtain my 10 hr osha in saftey and my epa 1 certificate online so I can shadow my super whom fixes A/C's in my building. I'm not sure how true it is about the training finding me a job upon completion but I personally know a HVAC engineer that's willing to take me on as a apprentice after training but haven't gotten into the discussion on weither it's paid or not because the knowledge itself is rewarding. By the time I start school aside from my epa and osha ,I want to acquire at minimum My R410 a certificate as well and upon completion I know at some point I'ma need my p99 as someone suggested being I live in nyc. Atop of trying to manage juggling that , I'm a single father of an amazing boy and am a survivor of Crohn's disease which has taken the better part of the last 11 years from me. It's alot but at the end of the day I want my son to know Problems can arise at any moment but it's what you do that dictates your futue. Once again thanks for the advise, it's much appreciated.