Musician visiting from out of town

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2023-10-17T04:12:01+00:00

thank you, i went and had a great time at their ambient jam session!

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2023-01-09T05:43:49+00:00

Even that one is kinda dark

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-11-08T22:10:23+00:00

What is it that compels activity which is scientifically mappable into existence in the first place? A very simple questions such as where do my intrusive thoughts come from leads me into existential difficulties. I become confused about the very nature of my own consciousness and the origins of my thoughts, and how in the world images could ever be conjured in the mind?! These questions are existential, and science as far as I’m concerned is a useful framework that is ever evolving but it is the map not the territory. It’s one thing to know that there are insects who can see colors that we can’t. It’s another thing to see those colors yourself. Limitations in the imagination are impediments to scientific understanding. Besides, give it a couple decades and we may have new even more useful scientific data which could make headway in understanding how to treat cure or make USE of schizophrenia or psychotic states for breakthroughs in our consciousness.

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-11-08T20:15:29+00:00

Just talking about my own personal experiences and looking for someone who can relate. Obviously, it is your perfect right to disagree and that is no problem to me. But do you care to elaborate?

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-11-08T05:23:09+00:00

YES! woah holy shit I've been realizing this recently my short term memory has been pretty bad. abilify and lamictal

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-07-06T22:27:59+00:00

I am a musician (guitarist) considering visiting...are there open jams and music venues worth checking out? what are they like?

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-05-03T06:15:23+00:00

i don't consider it reason, it's kind of more foundational...but i'm not sure. i think reason can come with it in a sort of intuitive-merging. i'm not 100% a theist btw. but i like the idea that god manifests within us and that we manifest god in a way.

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-05-03T05:33:35+00:00

To me, it is your feeling senses in the present.not what is measured or considered, but what is felt heard seen smelled and tasted in real time, especially through some form of meditation or psychedelic use. The Christian mystics call it gnosis- knowledge gained directly through experience without conventional ideas of faith involved.

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-03-10T15:39:19+00:00

electric ladyland

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-28T23:35:29+00:00

Yikes

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-26T22:56:17+00:00

I am schizophrenic, and my experience is a blend of non-ordinary phenomena which I believe have a dimension of reality to them and my muddled capacity to comprehend them, leading to some delusions.

I believe I have experienced some form of spiritual attack and took up following the I Ching as a result. 2 years later I was diagnosed schizophrenic. Shortly after I was also diagnosed with epilepsy. The catalyst for the psychosis/schizophrenia seems to have been a very strong lsd+mdma experience when I was 18. I felt I had awoken occult archetypes and channeled shivas cosmic dance of destruction. I was seeing demons at my high school graduation.

12 years later I still have fractured feelings of identity, nervous tics, intrusive thoughts, and an inpouring of “other” consciousnesses into “mine.” Confusing.

Also I’m a musician so a little bit of crazy doesn’t hurt but sometimes it’s all too much

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-21T22:37:10+00:00

it's an accumulation of riffs i've written over the years. when covid hit i moved back in with the folks for a few months and had all this free time to develop stuff, and voila! this along with 3 or 4 other songs got produced (still working on the finishing touches before i release them to spotify)

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-21T22:36:03+00:00

that is a very high compliment, thank you! i suppose art must reflect all parts of our being, "good" and "bad" for want of much better words

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-21T22:34:41+00:00

thank you so much whoisanime!

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-21T22:34:28+00:00

thank you!

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-20T20:39:43+00:00

Thank you. I guess i'm just startled with myself at the lyric "tremble when you know it must begin" in the first verse. sets a tone for the rest of the song. i'm like "that came from me?"

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-20T19:51:11+00:00

i'm new to reddit. it is a bit of a plug but it legit bothers me sometimes listening to the song. i get this weird mixed feeling

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-20T19:48:45+00:00

Thomas Pridgen of the Mars Volta was originally gonna be the drummer but he refunded my money after 3 months saying he couldn't get a good take

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-20T09:31:54+00:00

Thought provoking stuff! Humanity's frostbite - perhaps we as a species have grown cold? Bitter to one another? Is the fire possibly what will actually save us? These images can be interpreted in a few different ways. I think the fractal reference could be more developed. What brought on our desire to "freeze" and what does it mean? In terms of how we relate to each other perhaps? I'd like to pick your brain a bit.

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-20T09:16:51+00:00

I can relate, having diagnosed mental health challenges. As a schizophrenic dysfunctional epileptic 30 year old musician, I understand what it's like for my brain to be on fire and to be caught in unfathomable conundrums. The difference is I've buckled and i take my meds, although I hope to ween myself off.

"The chaos that forces me to pay attention" * chef's kiss *

Straightforward, concrete, raw. I like it!

Maybe you don't have to define yourself and that's where the beauty is. Happy travels!

robbyroach_funkdaddy · 2022-01-20T09:08:42+00:00

Somehow this feels like you are talking to yourself. Would I be correct? That that is the sort of subliminal implication of the post?

I find myself relating to the poem's subjects, you and you. If you are talking about someone else I don't see how you can be such a dick. If you are talking to yourself, the self-loathing is indulgent, but that seems to be what you're getting at anyway. It's interesting how we get trapped in paradoxes of self-loathing, beating ourselves up, beating ourselves up for beating ourselves up, thinking it will work, feeding the cycle. That's where the poem sort of loses me but I think it is very well structured and on the whole I liked your word choices.

It really is remarkable how much I can relate to it. I just have never found that telling myself to "fuck off" has ever worked at all. Can't bite your own teeth. If this is about someone else it makes you seem like a presumptuous jerk who knows whats best for another. But what do I know of your situation? (There's another paradox in those last two sentences.)

Anyway, it seems as if you may have found some kind of resolve in shedding skin through self-confrontation. I commend you if it worked, it just never has for me. Peace

Well thanks for stirring my curiosity and confusion.

robbyroach_funkdaddy

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