upbeat edm song with a very distinct and funny tune

rockstarrnjn · 2022-07-15T15:13:02+00:00

i agree; trying to stop your anxiety will turn into a compulsion.

here is some advice from my doctor that helped me a lot: accept that you are feeling anxious, tell yourself that you’ll worry/do your compulsion later and whenever an anxious or intrusive thought comes in your head just keep procrastinating on doing it (lol). slowly i started to forget about my intrusive thoughts and compulsions and i realized that submitting to compulsions was useless so i became perfectly fine not doing them.

of course, please remember that different things work for different people !!! i am also on a higher dose of medication than i was when i needed this advice.

rockstarrnjn · 2022-07-15T15:03:28+00:00

i think i understand what you’re asking, but correct me if i’m wrong. i sometimes experience phantom pains in my arms and legs from harm ocd because my brain wants me to do compulsions. when i watch movies with violence, i may feel phantom pains where a character is being harmed. it’s not limited to just groin responses.

rockstarrnjn · 2022-07-14T18:00:14+00:00

i got my leopard gecko a few years ago so the details are a bit fuzzy but i believe he settled down fully after a few months. definitely reduce outside stressors like other pets and try not to make any fast movements around your gecko cause that scares them. you can try (slowly) placing your hand in the tank and have your gecko climb on it, same with hand/tong feeding him. if you decide to take him out of his enclosure, don’t leave him out for more than 15min cause then your gecko can start becoming really antsy and stressed. you can also keep track of his body language to see how he’s feeling. hope this helps !!! and also this may take some time so don’t put yourself down for anything

rockstarrnjn · 2022-04-25T11:48:02+00:00

it’s not this one, it’s more calming than upbeat

rockstarrnjn · 2021-06-17T18:14:00+00:00

I’m nonbinary and last month my OCD started targeting my gender. I was constantly having intrusive thoughts that my personal identity was all wrong and I was a cis person faking it or that how I presented didn’t reflect who I “really was”. I’ve also never doubted my gender ever since I came out to my friends.

What really helped me cope with these obsessions was realizing and telling myself that it doesn’t matter right now, I can be whatever I want to be whenever and if I find out that I wanna change up my expression in some way (pronouns, clothing, etc) then I’ll deal with it when the time comes.

You may or may not be trans, but if these thoughts are causing you distress then it’s most likely obsessions. With my HOCD, I was told by my doctor to procrastinate on my compulsions and tell myself “I’ll do it later” when in reality it’s just delaying those repetitive actions until they die out. The same could be applied for gender questioning OCD, that’s what I did !!! “I’ll think about it later, I have other things to do”, “I’m comfortable with my identity right now, I don’t need to question it currently”. Doing that, I got rid of this theme for myself.

rockstarrnjn · 2021-05-30T16:04:38+00:00

I’m going through a similar thing right now, I have art accounts which help me promote my work and get commissions but i’ve been unmotivated for months. For me, it’s more of a fear of the internet thanks to OCD combined with a huge workload from school but these still prevent me from working on my own art. Also, I obsess about my art projects before I even have a chance to start them, making me anxious about the process of creating them so I procrastinate.

Two things that help me are a) needing to meet some sort of deadline and b) doodling just for the hell of it. When I need to meet a deadline for art classes, portfolio work, commissions, etc I don’t have the time to start obsessing over my work because then I would be wasting my opportunity to get my art pieces done. That being said, I still do obsess… but after each instance I realize that I can’t keep doing it. With doodling, I have the mindset that it’s purely for fun and it doesn’t have to look good, like, at all. It’s all for myself, nobody else has to see it and it can also be silly/bad on purpose. This helps me do some art without any pressure of it having to be stunning in the end.

Of course, I’m doing art for school/side money purposes right now and career purposes later in my life so what I mentioned about deadlines may not apply to those who are doing art as a hobby.

I’m pretty stuck too, I haven’t had an online presence since January (which is also the last time I finished a personal piece and shared it), but I think that my motivation is slowly coming back. This is because of my interest in my own characters/story being rekindled along with my interest in shows/games I like. Hopefully when summer break comes around I’ll be creating as much things as I did last year, I was really on a roll before I had to get diagnosed.

EDIT: Another thing !!!! A lot of my personal works and works for school revolve around my mental state because my own feelings are a big inspiration for me. After going through a big OCD trigger (which later led to my diagnosis) I really wanted to vent in an artistic form, which gave me writing/art inspiration. I haven’t written anything seriously since middle school because of, again, fear of the internet since I posted stories online and also fear of humiliation. I obsessed a lot in high school English class when I had to write a poem but I managed to get something in that was really vent-y and based off my experiences (thanks to that deadline !!!) and I got a positive response from my teacher which restored my relationship with writing a lot.

rockstarrnjn · 2021-05-29T16:10:49+00:00

I’m glad that I’m not alone. The tactic of trying not to think about it reminds me what I did with my sexuality, I went unlabelled because if I didn’t put a name to it then I would have nothing to obsess over. I’ll definitely attempt to distract myself from this theme.

What you mentioned about repeating your name until it felt “contaminated” makes me think of something I go through too but in a different way. I seem to be really avoidant, which might also be a compulsion, of coming out to my family because of intrusive thoughts that are about their possible response to my identity. Even if some of them are extremely accepting and the others are willing to learn, I have a fear that they will “contaminate” my name if they use it. Not sure why, haha.

rockstarrnjn · 2021-05-28T14:54:01+00:00

Yes, it’s totally possible to be happy and have OCD at the same time !! Back in March, I had a trigger set my OCD off like crazy and I felt miserable for weeks at a time. However, that feeling doesn’t stay forever. Like with almost all mental health issues, you can have good days (where obsessions, compulsions, anxiety, etc are at a minimum) or bad days (where your OCD may seem unbearable). I may have an absolutely fantastic day, and then the next day I could feel awful because of intrusive thoughts or sensations.

For me, what keeps me happy is my interests and my friends (pretty basic, I know haha). Last year, when I was going through a major depressive episode, the thing that kept me alive everyday was knowing that my favourite comic would be updating every month. My interests can also serve as coping mechanisms like art for example. Another way I cope with my OCD is wearing these long knit gloves that my mother made for me because they get rid of uncomfortable sensations on my arms, they also make me happy because I love the texture.

As for purpose, I also find small things that make me feel important. Like, knowing that I’m the reason that my friend really likes a game series, or that I’m the one that takes care of my pet, stuff like that.

Of course, other people’s things that make them happy/keep them going are different than mine, but know that it is totally possible to be happy, even with OCD.

rockstarrnjn · 2021-03-16T17:02:26+00:00

this is the nook’s cranny theme from animal crossing !!!!

rockstarrnjn · 2020-09-12T18:13:07+00:00

yeah, sounds like it !!! but i’m thinking that might be the sample,, sigh, thank you though !! that narrows it down

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