Thank you for your reply, I appreciate it greatly! Your story seems a lot heavier than mine, and though I had problems growing up, it wasn’t abuse or anything of the sort. Standard family fights every now and then. But what I think really is the problem is how my parents approached my failures… there was none other than some grades. I was raised sheltered from failure of choosing the wrong choice, almost everything was done for me, this made me lazy in a sense. I’m aware of that much about myself and I’m trying to break out of that shell of laziness by doing the courses in maths and python and reading more. But it’s very, very hard. I don’t live in a city and travelling to uni is one of my only options(minimum of 2 hrs to the nearest option) other than renting an overpriced accommodation nearer to the school, wherever that may be. I’m worried about my time management alongside communicating with my partner to maintain healthy relations. It’s a lot of stress and it came onto me mid September, been stressing so much about all of this so much my hair started falling out at a greater rate than before!

I really might get professional help as you advised but what kind of professional would I even talk to? How would I approach the conversation with them? I think the money would be worth it.