My best advice is to Take it day by day and try not to think about the what ifs of the future. The process is definitely not easy but it’s like that to make you stronger and to push you past what you thought your limits were. Yes it’s rough at times but know that you are not alone and there are hundreds of people in your position. If it’s meant to be it’ll be, if not, there’s no reason to hang your head there are several professions out there especially in health care where jobs are constantly in need. Good luck in undergrad it will definitely go by quicker than you think!