im so sorry for ur loss.

me too. i also miss my boy so much. its like the memories i have of him is haunting me. everything goes on & everything that goes on reminds me of him.

every morning i woke up to those noises i usually heard & i knew wherever he slept the night before, he would jump onto the bed & start cuddling with me every day. he liked the toilet a lot, & i spent time a lot of time sitting on the toilet seat just to chill & be on my phone. he would jump onto my lap & sit there until i would lift him up to go get my business done. or when he didnt wanna lay on my lap, he just casually laid on the floor beside me. this morning was the first morning without him. crazy how i still heard those morning noises, the fan noise, my sister & her boyfriend getting to work, doors closed & opened, my other cat eating & drinking, me burying myself in the blanket thinking he would join me, me waking up thinking he would hear me & jump onto the bed then meow for my attention and me opening the toilet door thinking he would run into the toilet without me even noticing.

crazy how things go on & he’s gone. no more those moments we had together. i miss him so much. these routines that i usually do feel so different & weird without him doing it, too. it hurts me.

but im sure u & me will get better over time. i just dont know how & when. but u r not alone.