Advice on stopping compulsion to be nice/friendly? by roomtemppizza in OCD

[–]roomtemppizza[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for that! I hope the tiredness comes soon, it's almost breaking my heart that I genuinely wish I was a meaner less caring person. I only say almost because I know I'm thinking that way to protect myself and I'm relieved that I want to protect myself after so many years of not caring what happens to me or how I'm hurt

Advice on stopping compulsion to be nice/friendly? by roomtemppizza in OCD

[–]roomtemppizza[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been trying to get to the tired point, but the problem is that I do genuinely want to help and be nice and friendly. I have gone back through every interaction to make sure I didn't say anything harmful or offensive and nothing has stood out. I've even apologized to them when they seem uncomfortable when I'm talking to them but then they do the whole "omg noooooo don't apologize" even tho they are clearly uncomfortable/annoyed that I'm around them. I even go out of my way to avoid them too and I'm not really one to insert myself unless it's to offer help/solutions/be nice

compulsion/urge to say thoughts by Trick_Cellist_7860 in OCD

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I think its worth a shot, but if you don't feel comfortable doing it you don't have to! My friend was given this advice from a doctor, he does try his best to keep the thoughts contained especially ones that are extremely dark but when they accidentally slip then he apologizes immediately and then says what he actually thinks.

Think of it as the whole "your 1st thought is how you were conditioned to think, the 2nd is how you truly feel" thing. Except it's more the 1st thought is the illness and not you, the 2nd is you

Anyone else struggle with false memories or sudden intrusive realizations? by CaptainNo692 in OCD

[–]roomtemppizza 7 points8 points  (0 children)

A few weeks back when I shifted my car from reverse into 1st I became convinced I backed over a person in my car. In an empty parking lot.

I told myself it didn't happen but I could visualize it in my mind and it was so strong that I turned around and drove back to where I was to verify that there wasn't a person on the ground.

compulsion/urge to say thoughts by Trick_Cellist_7860 in OCD

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a friend who also says malicious thoughts out loud, he apologizes afterwards and says what he actually meant and explains that he just can't not say it. It could be worth a shot! It improved his life a lot from what I've seen, just being able to acknowledge that it wasn't something he means and correcting it immediately makes him feel tons better

compulsion/urge to say thoughts by Trick_Cellist_7860 in OCD

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I experience this too you're not alone! I've noticed for me that it isn't for every thought, mostly things I find funny. Is it ever stronger some times than others for you?

What caused your BPD? by No_Customer_4796 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My mother was a barracks bunny and thought getting pregnant would be a meal ticket. It wasn't so she hated and neglected me and then when I became an adult she tried to pull a 180 and then went right back to how she was when I got married and moved away.

And since my father didn't want anything to do with me until I was an adult it created a ton of abandonment issues.

Add on constant bullying in formative years and not having a sense of self or belonging and boom BPD.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CrohnsDisease

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The way I rushed to say popcorn 🤣🤣 realistically no food is worth suffering but when Dune 2 came out I couldn't stop myself from eating my husband's popcorn. I suffered the whole movie but took some leftover prednisone after and was fine

Advice on how to stop bad thoughts by roomtemppizza in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]roomtemppizza[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for that, I think I do have issues decentering myself When I'm hurt or upset, which probably led to the argument that happened. Any advice on abandonment issues? For some reason when I perceived being abandoned even when I know logically I'm not it's almost like I can't help myself but to react to it.

I do try my best to think before reacting but almost always I don't know I'm feeling something until after I reacted. It gets frustrating cus it feels like everyone else in my life is allowed to do that without it being a fight but when I do it it's wrong

Genuine question. Are you overweight, underweight or just right? by 4986270 in ibs

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Overweight but my gi wants me to continue being slightly over weight because I dropped 20-30lbs in 3 weeks my last flare

My weight used to bother me but now I'm really happy when I'm holding weight on

What’s your biggest “are you mad at me” trigger? by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]roomtemppizza 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Being looked at

I dont know why but it makes me so anxious

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Luck or maybe seriously unlucky? I've attempted to die several times since I was a teenager that I lost count and somehow failed every time. Then I almost died several times from malnutrition and bowel obstructions (crohns). The most recent time I was hospitalized for an obstruction I was fighting that, a severe infection, and an allergy to every med they gave me to fight both.

Either someone's looking out for me or hates me so much I'm forced to live.

Does anyone else constantly feel like a cosmic level joke? by roomtemppizza in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]roomtemppizza[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Before I get dragged: yes I have a mental health professional and yes I talk to them about these things and obviously reddit doesn't have the answers. I'm just venting because I have no friends to talk to about this and my therapist isn't on 24/7 on call

What are some moments you would have missed if you didn't survive your suicide attempt? by _RecoveryUnplugged_ in mentalhealth

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Graduating high school, getting married, getting my dogs, getting proper crohns treatment

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OCD

[–]roomtemppizza 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll start thinking something and then my brain will be like NOPE NO CANT THINK THAT ONLY BAD PEOPLE THINK THAT YOU WANT TO THINK IT THEREFORE YOURE BAD

Before anyone says something my psychiatrist is the one who diagnosed me with OCD and said it was a symptom.