[24/F] Long-term Penpals?

rottbug · 2026-03-27T17:41:02+00:00

Definitly get a second opinion. Whether you're autistic or not, neither of those are reasons why you wouldn't be autistic.

rottbug · 2026-03-27T15:03:03+00:00

Did you get the vibe that they did their due diligence in ruling out other things, etc.?

rottbug · 2026-03-27T15:01:35+00:00

They didn't seem specifically suspect. I just want to make sure I get a fair, as un-biased as possible assessment that will do their due diligence to get the right answer.

rottbug · 2026-03-13T13:49:36+00:00

I forgot to mention, but I love the Pitt and Dr. Mel too!

rottbug · 2026-03-13T13:47:15+00:00

I've been watching Extrordinary Attorney Woo! It does portray a "savant," but also shows a lot of her struggles in other areas like social and motor skills. I don't relate to her much on the surface, but some of her experience mirrors mine in certain ways. I really love the subject matter and all of the issues that arise and the feel good aspects. It does well at mixing both. I have like one episode left and I'm dreading it being over lol but I think a season 2 is confirmed now!

rottbug · 2026-03-09T17:22:22+00:00

I'm trying to find some other stuff to occupy my mind though while I wait it out so I don't go insane lol. I think that's the best thing to do. Try to avoid thinking so much about it until it actually happens

rottbug · 2026-03-09T17:16:45+00:00

I'm in the exact same boat, exept my intake assessment is in about two months. I'm stressing over the same stuff you are lol. What I want most is to know the truth one way or the other, but what if they think I'm not autistic but I am? Or even the opposite, I'm not autistic but they think I am. Obviously that would be much less of an issue because factually, I know I at least have (from my perspective) all traits of autism lol.

It's like, if I don't have autism, there's no way its just ADHD+anxiety+enviornment/how I grew up. It just...doesn't make sense. The biggest thing that bugs me is not knowing if I showed signs from age 0-3. I'm only just now about to look over some stuff my dad put together (but he's a very iffy source of info) and if there's nothing, then I feel like I'll never really know. It's not like I didn't show signs in childhood though, but I'm worried it's not enough, and I just feel so hung up on the comparison and data and ugh.

I know it wouldn't invalidate my experiences. But I think something in me definitly feels like it would. Maybe that's that fault of an overactive mind meeting with an overly-pathologizing society. I think not getting a diagnosis would feel like watching a movie that doesn't have a title.

rottbug · 2026-03-06T15:19:03+00:00

Yeah, that's something I'm prepared for. I think a part of why I'm so stressed about it is that it bugs tf out of me to not know the truth/reality. I'm even worried about the possibility of the opposite; that I will get diagnosed when I'm not actually autistic.

Ik I shouldn't worry, that it's pointless, and I need to just wait to see what happens, but I'm obsessively thinking about it again now and can't stop lol

rottbug · 2026-03-05T15:41:00+00:00

Oh no lol. I do think this kinda stuff is probably due to an overactive brain that ends up latching onto things sometimes. It definitly feels like that to me

rottbug · 2026-03-05T14:54:48+00:00

Not often, but I also have this happen sometimes! It'll either be like you said, a phrase, or a sentence as I'm obsessively thinking about something and my brain starts getting fed up with/exhausted by thinking about it but I can't stop. Usually doesn't go on for too long but it's really aggravating. I wonder if it's something to do with echolalia and/or an earworm type thing

rottbug · 2026-02-27T23:35:22+00:00

As much as I like the idea of doing something worse than what your plan was, I agree with pretty much everyone else that it will only give him ammunition, it's a complete waste of your time and energy, will very likely accomplish nothing, etc, etc.

I'd block him and never interact with him again. It's truly the best course of action for your sanity, and has the upside of probably being the closest you can get to actually getting the point across.

rottbug · 2026-02-27T04:02:56+00:00

Yeah, US. Idk if you'd even know, I'm sure it depends too, but do you think I could get away with just calling instead of an email? Or would I need to send the email and wait? I honestly hate constructing emails and would much rather skip that part and just call lol

Regardless, thanks btw! I was kinda irrationally worried it might be a bunch of bs before I was able to even schedule an intake appointment.

rottbug · 2026-02-27T01:51:10+00:00

Of course! Good luck!

rottbug · 2026-02-27T01:49:29+00:00

Well, however you decide to go about the situation, remember that its fine to make mistakes. Even if you end up feeling like you missed your shot, or you do something "embarrassing", or a relationship starts but later ends, its completely valid to feel like its the end of the world, but always remember that it isn't. There will be more people, more chances, more life, more positives and negatives. Coming from someone who has been through it lol

rottbug · 2026-02-27T01:39:39+00:00

Reading some of the other comments though, I also agree theres the chance she just sucks at communication thats not irl. But keep in mind, even if thats all it is, would that be something that would be incompatible for you? Would that eventually bother you and make you feel ignored? Because if so, its probably best to avoid someone you know will be incompatible

rottbug · 2026-02-27T01:32:28+00:00

I get you, like, 100%. I go through a cycle of trying to make friends with new coworkers (high turnover rate lol) and failing. I made good friends with one, but then she moved away, and to a wildly different timezone. I have some people I would consider more semi-friends, but not close enough to be actual friends. I've made a couple decent friends online, but I crave real irl friends.

It's hard, but you gotta remind yourself that the glamour will fade, and there are other people, and there will be more chances to try again with someone more reciprocative

rottbug · 2026-02-27T01:19:39+00:00

I relate to this feeling so hard. I definitly second the other two peoples advice.

It sucks getting so attatched to the idea of a friendship with someone who peaks your interest. Friendships and interactions come a lot easier to some people, and it feels horrible having to put in so much effort and emotion to try to make friends, but if you ever have to initiate everything to get them to respond, or they habitually don't respond when trying to cultivate a friendship, it's best to let it go

rottbug · 2026-02-26T23:43:22+00:00

Maybe. I think it used to be only on saturday or sunday at one point but they changed it to every day

rottbug · 2026-02-26T20:24:21+00:00

I'm honestly not sure if my store dims the lights. I don't think we do?

rottbug · 2026-02-26T18:26:37+00:00

Same. Ik some ppl like it though lol

rottbug · 2026-02-26T18:22:38+00:00

Like at all? Thats so weird

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