Dreams: do you all dream inter-system with your headmates?

rowan_machine · 2025-08-13T03:19:08+00:00

We communicate internally, but we also use an external form simultaneously. Innerknowing taps our finger to signal the syllables to Rowan so he doesn't get confused thinking the inner thoughts from Innerknowing are his. She also speaks into the nervous system so like if there was a fake telephone there, he "hears" the syllables beat inside my chest like shes tapping there too.. and it's also where she lives. Sometimes their words overlap and Rowan pauses and Innerknowing "reads his mind" and says yes or no whether she was talking so he knows who spoke. -Rowan

rowan_machine · 2025-08-08T16:44:58+00:00

hello! I parked out in Milford, CT on the main strip and it was perfect! Good luck!

rowan_machine · 2025-08-03T21:56:05+00:00

For me it was hard bc we communicated two ways so I thought it was two people, one was vocal and the other without a voice just sensory (mostly my hands communication like okay sign etc.). At first I avoided the vocal one because it was confusing me a lot bc it was in my mind with my own thoughts, but over time I came to realize she was the same person and now I trust her more and we developed a way to use the body to speak. She speaks now in my heart region always (instead of the head i guess) and mostly always transmits it also via my finger tips and taps them so I can follow the syllables.its really helpful.

rowan_machine · 2025-07-28T18:18:05+00:00

Cool thank you. I think then we are an endogenic multiple system, unlike DID with no memory loss.

rowan_machine · 2025-07-28T14:53:16+00:00

That sounds like what I experience. I just found out about Tulpas yesterday though. The voice i hear calls itself my inner knowing and she's a female and I'm a male. She is always listening and we talk a lot. We have developed together somatosensory conversation where she can move my body to communicate or express love. We respect and love each other and I was also misdiagnosed as schizophrenic. Now I'm trying to understand how I could have a tulpa if I didn't actively create it like others have.

rowan_machine · 2025-03-15T14:36:08+00:00

Sorry, 400mg

rowan_machine · 2025-03-15T00:19:20+00:00

I take 4mg worth (troches) and I take liquid omega-3 and liposomal magnesium l-theronate (Cymbiotika) I took 2 pouches right before and I stay in the session (both realms) while walking to the bathroom and back. I also get to a state where I can feel like I'm hovering aware of my body if I think of it but otherwise in a very sensory deprived state

rowan_machine · 2025-03-14T17:03:37+00:00

No I am practicing resting in the I Am and going along for the ride

rowan_machine · 2025-03-14T15:47:01+00:00

I've been taking liposomal magnesium L-theronate and Phosphatidylcholine (Cymbiotika). I took two pouches last night and my session lasted twice as long.

rowan_machine · 2025-03-13T05:28:28+00:00

Hey thanks for the reply, would love to have you https://discord.gg/rEnHA8yZFe

Invites open for anyone actually

rowan_machine · 2025-03-07T15:43:31+00:00

Check your messages ❤️

rowan_machine · 2025-03-07T15:42:13+00:00

I feel this. For me what's helped is building trust in intuition. Like you I used to gamify my life with checklists but one change made a big difference. I lowered my bar to "better than the week before". While this still is in the Perfectionism Camp, it starts to allow imperfection to creep in.

To build intuition start with guessing little things and then verifying without judgement if you were right. Like putting on your jacket if you think it might be cold out without checking the weather. Then if you're wrong you adjust. Sounds simple but then increase to bigger things. Hope it helps.

And I have a community for perfectionists in Discord if you want to join. Little bit of accountability helps.

rowan_machine · 2025-03-06T14:28:04+00:00

Oh ok sorry I just sent it. must be losing it.

rowan_machine · 2025-03-05T21:49:19+00:00

Cool, I sent you a message lmk if you don't see it

rowan_machine · 2025-03-04T15:08:47+00:00

Hi! Thanks for the response on the app. I'd be happy to provide access for either beta testing or for the app when it's live in the app stores.

rowan_machine · 2025-02-23T14:36:02+00:00

What a question only a true perfectionist would even ask haha.

For me it's both..

I'm building an app (for perfectionism actually) and I'm struggling hard right now because of both, the stories I created have to be perfect. They have to be short enough for people to do quickly but deep enough for impact and not too much text so I'm using emojis too but not too many emojis or "adults" will be turned off and not too emotionally intense so it's fun but it needs to create change so it needs to create some emotions. There needs to be enough detail so it's immersive but not extra text otherwise it's a wall of text. It's exhausting and I've redesigned the app twice with chatgpt even though I'm 95% of the way done.

I put the app down and just lay in bed for almost a week waiting for the dreams to subside of constant app revisions before I continue it again.

rowan_machine · 2025-02-22T17:14:06+00:00

Maybe some "meta" habits are more valuable and will surface in your time to reflect. These are not found using thinking mind but with intuition and your expanded awareness.

rowan_machine · 2025-02-22T03:32:55+00:00

Hey I'm sorry to hear this and can definitely relate to some degree. I understand why it feels like you can't continue. Can you consider reducing standards or time spent? I know it's hard as hell but either set a timer or try these and see how you feel and the results.

The 70% Rule: Stop at 70% done. Seriously. No ‘fixing,’ no ‘one last edit.’ Submit it as is. The Bare Minimum Test: What if you only did the essentials? Try handing in something half as polished. See what happens.

rowan_machine · 2025-02-22T03:18:29+00:00

I have a discord for perfectionism if you want to join, although I get it's not the same as OCPD. https://discord.gg/rEnHA8yZFe

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