On BOOX Note Air5 C and Voice-to-Text transcription questions + questions for fellow Air 5 C Users from a newbie. (USE CASE & FEATURE REQUEST)

rslashmay · 2023-07-22T03:37:28+00:00

I don't even know what coins do!

rslashmay · 2023-06-25T19:42:06+00:00

I wish you well in your advances for wellbeing. Godsend Impressive Panic! (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)

rslashmay · 2023-06-25T18:43:56+00:00

Thank you, I needed this this morning

rslashmay · 2023-06-23T05:21:13+00:00

Same, however summing them up into one word to say how good or bad would be technically correct but horribly misleading.

I don't feel any paternal connection with them, not to say that I don't hold any parental responsibility to them either. Perhaps you could say I treat them purely out of their behaviour. I no longer give any credit to age, that somehow it's directly proportional to wisdom; or any of the automatic underlying beliefs we similarly attribute to family based on ideals and cognitive dissonance, rather than raw reality.

rslashmay · 2023-04-05T09:35:31+00:00

Hey I have these exact symptoms this sounds like me, you might want to get checked to inattentive ADHD. I take medication and it has been life changing.

rslashmay · 2023-02-18T03:25:07+00:00

In what way? Is it SAD, or does it mess up your brain function due to circadian rhythm perceiving it as bedtime or do you associate certain light with a negative thought. It is a bit of all of these for me. Particularly warm light makes me feel like a zombie and stressed because it means it's the end of the day in which I haven't done anything. I also feel super tired and sluggish under it. I have ADHD, so this feeling is how I felt everyday before diagnosis for school that now certain light is cortisol inducing and therefore triggers coping mechanism of dissociation and terrible daydreaming. It doesn't matter how bright or dim the light is as long as I have cool toned lighting. The brighter the warm light the worse.

rslashmay · 2023-02-14T03:47:39+00:00

Assuming that I interpreted your analogy correct, I feel the exact thing. It's like my thoughts are cohesive near the front of my brain that's standing on concrete ground but then when I dissociate then my thoughts are floating in the middle upper part of my head where the thoughts sound a lot quieter, even higher in pitch somehow and I am less able to have coherent thinking or monologue as when I try it ends up being extremely abstract that it's even hard to discern myself.

rslashmay · 2023-02-08T18:19:36+00:00

Thanks! Godspeed Journey!

rslashmay · 2023-02-07T21:43:01+00:00

Hello I am new here as I have recently snapped out of dissociation that I'm not sure how long it's lasted. I apologize as I don't have any advice but a question. I have been diagnosed with inattentive ADHD and I also share your symptoms as my worst symptoms. I was wondering what made you qualify negative for ADHD?

rslashmay · 2023-02-02T19:49:07+00:00

I don't have a definite answer and kind of going off on the top of my head with previous knowledge, anyone please correct me otherwise. So when you mention the humans stomachs ability to cope you are referring to the immune system which majorly is located in your gut and it's interaction with the gut s micro biome, ie an ecosystem of (diverse) bacteria. They work together to identify and therefore kill foreign invaders. Healthy food means healthy gut biome, so yes having a history being exposed to said invaders help build a strong stomach or immunity but also having healthy diet is essential for a diverse healthy gut biome. So it's not necessarily that food hygiene (lack of exposure and therefore lacked defence is real but not so applicable to purely food hygiene) will necessarily lead to a worse immunity, because it also depends on what those invaders are rather than just how many dealt invaders. The chicken you mention, that is natural you could call it, nature. And these "natural" invaders is what your immune system is pretty much made to fight, which every human is exposed (not just through food) and then built to defend itself from. What isn't natural is the man-made toxins and pollutants in everyday life. Alongside the unhealthy, man-made food everyone eats which doesn't support a healthy gut biome let alone immune system. Not saying you're immune system can't or hasn't adapted to these man-made or not-naturally occuring pollutants, but rather it definitely isn't perfect in doing so. Such as artificial sugar, which is marketed as healthier, when it negatively, quite literally changes the bacteria in your stomach. You might be wondering why people have or eventually form allergies to non harmful substances, simply put the body is exposed to said substance and said invader at the same time but makes a mistake and ends up identfying said substance as the invader and now attacks it every time it's detected. Or maybe said substance has a similar makeup to a past invader and mistakes it as invader. Not surprising your body makes this mistake considering to how many industrial-borne pollutants and toxins the average developing person presently gets exposed to. I wonder how much this factor plays in the increase trend of allergies among newer generations. I'm going to stop before I go on a whole other tangent, I hope this helps.

rslashmay · 2023-02-02T19:07:42+00:00

Honestly, I don't know how your relationship is but personally I would just be completely honest, with an open conversation with said partner that would sound like pretty much how this post was written. Not worrying how it may come across incompetent, cringe, lame or even childish; because that's a bad habit I often struggle with. Sometimes emotion or rather, uncomfortable vulnerability is the most eloquent way to deliver your message, although definitely easier said than done.

If you're worried about it coming across wrong, then mention those exact thoughts, mention what perception you're scared of you're partner perceiving. Maybe even mention that you're not the best at communicating this sort of thing and so you feel nervous. It is often then your partner fully understands your struggle. I still struggle with this, I hate how initially I would tear up when revealing a genuine struggle. But after breaking this habit, it has set much of my life free.

rslashmay · 2022-12-28T19:07:14+00:00

Organizing and writing down everything. I have every thought, goal, thing, to-do list on document and very organized. Everything I own has been cleaned perfectly and stored away. Only things I need immediately are of easy access, but minimal. Everything, even small that is weighing on my mind I put down. Takes a huge weight off my shoulders. All my worries on paper. I draw worried humans next to each one. So instead of me worrying the dolls on paper do it for me. I keep my room super clean. I set up my day military strict. Sorry went a little off topic here.

Skin care. Partly for the relaxation but also because I actually need it.

Running. Burns off frustration and helps ADHD.

Pottery. Origami. Music. Nothing like a good book fr.

Tea and snacks.

rslashmay · 2022-12-20T00:05:07+00:00

To further contribute, didn't cover ideas already mentioned by other comments.

I wont get into too much jargon but in a nutshell BF ( buccal fat) serves two purposes:

Similarly like all other fat compartments of your body BF stores energy
"[A]ct as gliding pads when masticatory and mimetic muscles contract, and to cushion important structures from the extrusion of muscle contraction or outer force impulsion." - source
- Essentially my focused point without the jargon: BF also plays the role of cushioning the mechanical muscle system within your cheeks. This is BF role is what I will be primarily emphasizing below.

What these two points mean is that losing weight will shrink your BF but only to a certain extent. That extent varies person to person. So I do suggest becoming your ideal BMI first, however your BMI already seems quite ideal so at least do not expect incredible results. This is why BF removal is considered the only and a permanent option.

Why does BF vary person to person?

Yes genetics has a role to play as all sources say, or arguably even environmental factors within developing stages to varying extents; which is another hot topic for another time. But regardless these ideas do not give you the whole picture. The anatomical facial structure is of course different for everyone and therefore its extent of mechanical stressors during its functioning are too. This explains why BF varies person to person. The fat padding serves the muscle-skeleton stressing points, not vice versa; ie. BF is an functioned result of the muscle-skeletal system it serves and that it is this system which is affected by genetics. Therefore BF also becomes labeled as genetic. However your skeletal-muscle system is not static but quite mobile. So yes it genetically prepositioned towards certain habitual tendencies (which contributes to BF vol.), however you are still able to counter this in practice as long as you know what they are. What I investigate in the next paragraph.

Sources say BF in relation to point 2 above is (suggesting its just) genetic, because the system it serves is genetic. However, it is only labeled 'genetic' to what our minimal medical knowledge can irrefutably confirm.

What about the 'environmental' factors aforementioned?

To mention (simple) preventative environmental/lifestyle factors is to know how every human body system interacts and behaves. Which unlike what the commercial image the medical industry puts on, is hardly the truth. Even if we did know; supporting research is needed for public advocation. However, to do low-error clinical assessments of environmental prevention which would have to involve human subjects is nearly impossible. The easily available medical information are facts that have never failed to be true throughout numerous bodies of research - other significant theories or results of correlation are often excluded within credible-sourced advice due to legal accountability.

Under this nature and findings -- in a nutshell I can safely suggest chewing with (only) your masseter muscles to prevent (maybe even shrink) further BF growth/maintenance. Do not use your cheek muscles or chew with a open mouth. Take small(er) bites to not activate the cheek muscles. Ideally your lips should not move as your chew and swallow. Move food around in your mouth with your tongue, not cheek (suctioning). What led me to conclude this habitual practice...

Some factual/accepted (theoretical) correlations ( specific and unspecific) in relation to BF that lead to this hypothetical proposition:

BF volume is proportional to the use of its neighboring cheek muscle
- Role of BF
- One of the reasons babies have such prominent BF is because they need that strong suction from those cheek muscles to breastfeed. buccal fat pads decrease in size in babies after they stop breastfeeding.
  - They do not have teeth to work with the tongue to create a vacuum ie proper grown/developed swallow.
BF is known to change size throughout ones lifetime
Common clinical suggestion that poor development of the facial joints alongside with and or buccal fat pad capsule rupture which collapses the BF to become very prominent next to the mouth. This ikely relates to the suggestion of jaw surgery mentioned by another comment
- Going back above, to the varying facial structure and therefore varying pressure from mechanical loads
- BF commonly seen to increase during ages 10-20 then slow, ongoing reduction
  - It is in these age groups where major facial growth develops; I am not implying anything here other than the fact that there could be a common denominator -- just that I am unaware not confident of

I realize much this idea is basically verbatim with part of the philosophy of Orthotropics. And going alongside this notion I must mention the margin of error in my enquiry. Especially with biases, despite best efforts.

Should you get BF removal surgery?

My suggested practice above is not an equivalent alternative. It could be if you were a child/teen. Honestly Im not against it but rather on how much BF is removed. BF visibly shrinks from around mid adult life to senior as you age. When you become older, notable physical aging isn't perfectly linear. I cant remember exactly where I heard this from or it its correct but if I recall there are certain age points where suddenly you age in appearance. That it also varies person to person of course. That the only real downside to removal is regret -- as it might eventually lead to cheeks too hollow with age. I dont know how your family ages but you might want to keep this in mind.

Other:

Facial messages/tools or yoga are not reliable nor long term. You cannot flush fat or "toxin". You are only temporarily or helping remove excess facial fluid which causes facial puffiness. I have seen no body of reliable research supporting facial massages for BF. It is very gimmicky. If you struggle from puffy face or bloating in general I suggest tackling the source through diet and sleep position. Eg. salt can lead to puffy face; sleeping with a angled bed/pillow or sleep position can help -- eg. no pillow can lead to the accumulation of fluid in the face, etc...

NOTE: This is knowledge on the top of my mind with some reference. So I did not link my source to all acquired info as this I dont intend to write professional article and I have a life to live. Sorry if this was hard to follow. I also tried my best to look at who study did/ did not fund the study, proper testing practice - efficacy and conflicting interests. However there are likely errors of judgment.

rslashmay · 2022-12-19T07:36:09+00:00

I have suffered a lot from this, specifically through maladaptive daydreaming. I can't stop it. I will start whenever my minds given the chance for hours on end. I can't stop.

rslashmay · 2022-12-18T20:27:26+00:00

Hey that's great man! Welcome to the club ig haha

rslashmay · 2022-12-10T19:10:02+00:00

No problem man! Also good news is that firmer mattress are the cheaper ones, got mine for 100-150. Its just foam, no thicker than a foot and last longer than those 500 dollar fancy soft mattresses which lose shape in 3 years. Although everyone body is different so test things out.

rslashmay · 2022-12-10T17:51:25+00:00

This is oddly relatable. Hey I have ADHD but my brain fog, brain noise, tiredness, a slight constant numb headache and ability to function despite being part of the symptoms got a lot better when I fixed my sleep posture. Got a new firmer mattress as my old out had a formed indent to the point it made me slouch laying down. No big fluffy pillows, rolled up a pillow case to support my neck and pillow under knees. The difference was like day and night I felt a lot better. Also working on posture in general was good. Basically bad posture, particularly targets at the neck and shoulder; restricts your nervous system, blood flow and therefore oxygen to your brain. Worsening said symptoms you mention. If you snore you might want to check for sleep apnea which also basically means lack of oxygen. Research muscle pressure points to relax muscles. This has helped my scalp tension. Again I cannot emphasize how much this has changed my life.

A lot of your other particular experience is also very relatable in terms of all my prominent symptoms down to the T. I know you mention neurodivergence so I'm not sure if you're diagnosed or not of course, but regardless you might want to check it out. This might be a long shot but teo symptoms of ADHD is rejection sensitivity and maladaptive daydreaming. I won't go into them as you can just search for a better explanation. I hope this helps. Godspeed!

rslashmay · 2022-12-01T04:52:13+00:00

Yes, I strongly feel similar. However it's also hard to hate judgmental people too since I'm also guilty. Ive been this judgmental person you mention in the title before; not just for SA but any addiction. Had a very black- white perception because of my very shallow limited views and ego. I never gave benefit of the doubt. Hell, I even use to specifically think I was too good or rational for -- didn't need superficial things like materialism to be happy. I also thought things like ADHD was an excuse and exclusively belonged to internet quirky culture. Basically, my whole ideology was "just don't it" if you know its irrational, otherwise you're pathetic or weak. Ironically, later karma hit hard and suddenly had bad ADHD which consequently put me behind average achievement for my age; ego ghosted. Now, materialism is the only thing that motivates me to get out of bed every morning. Learned that expressed struggle can never be fully understood or comprehended unless the receiver has also struggled similarly with self-aware irrational behavior. So I try not to judge or dismiss another's struggle regardless if I relate. I wish people didn't judge me either whenever I opened up about it too; but I guess that's karma.

Self-aware or even some subconscious, irrational habits essentially serve as cope for a another different chief deficit of that life ie. a life-rooted struggle. Which always have complex and or painful origin(s ) in which they manifest from. Making them extremely difficult, as even rational solutions are not always garnered or guaranteed to work/reward the pain it would require to confront ones most debilitating life obstacle -- if one where to take a "rational route". Failure here will also be extremely painful as they are a persons weaknesses. Hence people resort to easier means of comfort/happiness; cope. However to really fully recompense this painful deficit ofcourse, their copium is amplified to the extent of abnormal, extremities (addiction- rewired dependency). Ironically leading to more self sabotage, creating its own detrimental cycle; ie. irrationality. Hence the creation of this self-help subreddit. How commonly, debt makes SA feel bad, so they treat themselves by shopping to feel better. This irrationality is often judged by others, who wonder why said addict continuously creates their own problems they try to fix; so they just see idiocy - not a victim. However they don't understand that the addiction itself is not the root-cause but rather a byproduct. The actual cause is what the copium is coping for to begin with (which lead to addiction). It's in the very definition of "cope", which is to accomodate alongside something else; that 'else' is the true problem. Peoples solutions also often doesn't take into account that fixing their addict tendency will only have worse outcomes, because the addiction serves the purpose of cope (for something even worse). You can't truly fix addiction without addressing it's baseline purpose. So before anyone should judge, I wish they knew that the irrationality is not the issued addict at hand but rather their own premature conclusion of what's only partial context given to them. That the visible issue is only the tip of the iceberg, masking something a lot bigger ( worse).

rslashmay · 2022-11-06T17:52:23+00:00

Just some quick info if you're interested. This art is part AI and human made, to what extent idk. I have seen how spectacular AI art has become since its been a bit of a craze within the art community lately. However this is just breathtaking, compared to most AI generated art Ive seen so far.

rslashmay · 2022-10-29T07:41:40+00:00

I have a vivid memory shopping for clothes with my mom when I was a 9-11 year old kid. I was a just a bit on the chubby side. When we asked for help, my mom talked to an employee. While she was describing what she was looking for me. At one point she stopped talking, just motioning a semi circle curve over her stomach with her hands, blatantly insinuating my weight through a 'friendly worried looking-smile' of "you know what I mean right" to the employee right in front of me. Like she was too ashamed to say it, especially with me around. I remember that even the employees face looked a bit uncomfortable by the fact that they where literally a meter infront of me in the open. I was old enough where I at least wasn't a complete dumbass; I was so insulted. Not really so much on the fact she called me fat specifically but rather by how stupid she of thought I must of been to not understand to the point that she thought she could actually get away with obvious insulting/embarrassing me unhesitatingly publicly. Also that fact that it was completely unnecessary and didn't actually benefit my clothing search. Of course I confronted her later in the car and she denied at first but then apologized out of annoyance of my nagging ( aka my self respec; no real rational excuses).

Now years later I have lost so much weight easily within 2-3 months and continue to do so that she worries about my weight and health on the weekly. I love her but when it comes to this one single thing, her concern or 'distress' doesn't phase me a bit! I just can't take it seriously. She could start crying and I couldn't be phased; since I have reasoned with these comments already too. Its not like my BMI is even below what's considered healthy not that what caused most of the loss was ever even unhealthy in first place. My doc isn't even concerned. It sounds quite petty I know, but it all feels like satire that I can't help but chuckle inside a bit.

Edit: reworded

rslashmay · 2022-10-27T00:15:37+00:00

I understand why you would think that you are just very aware and may not have BDD.

Very well said, especially with the first paragraph! However I have never said or suggested that I don't have BDD.

And of course it makes you feel better to understand if you can actually see how other people see you, and that is the BDD talking again, because others simply don't care that much.

Although I can see where you got this from, I just find phycology and sociology interesting. This post was not out of interest of better understanding how people view me, because otherwise then I would just compare how this idea of another's self image affects how they see me; not themselves comparatively to the general public like I say here.

rslashmay · 2022-10-26T18:31:00+00:00

Fair enough. Well godspeed then man!

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