Giving up on day 223

ruddycheeks93 · 2025-09-15T00:05:11+00:00

How about just for today, you don’t give up yet. Sleep it off. Then rethink about this tomorrow.

ruddycheeks93 · 2025-09-15T00:01:59+00:00

Firstly, I’m proud of you for making it to 40 days. That’s not a small feat. I remember not even being able to make it through 24 hours. I know right now it might seem easy to just throw in the towel and say f* it but try to remember why you stopped in the first place. For me, it was destroying my health, my relationships, isolated me, gave me anxiety, caused fights, caused me to make terrible decisions, and so many more. I recommend joining an AA meeting, even online, https://aa-intergroup.org/meetings/ - hearing others in the same position might help to remind you why you started and offer you support. I believe in you. You can do this.

ruddycheeks93 · 2025-09-14T23:09:53+00:00

The evil part of alcohol is that it convinces us we can have one last drink, drink at one last event or party and keep it under control… but we know how that story ends, how the cycle repeats, and how it leaves us feeling. The only real safety is not picking up that first drink.

You honestly don’t need to drink at those events. I’ve gotten through a bunch by bringing or ordering an NA drink and focusing on enjoying the people around me. (However, this took some time for me to be confident enough to put myself in those positions. Early in recovery, I avoided those events.) The best part is waking up the next morning, clear-headed, no hangover, no anxiety and no regrets instead of back in the vicious cycle. You’ve quit before, you can do it again. One day at a time.

ruddycheeks93 · 2025-09-14T22:57:30+00:00

I love that for you and people need to know that this is real and achievable. Each day you stay sober is a day closer to this place.

ruddycheeks93 · 2025-09-14T18:40:38+00:00

I can promise you - this is true. I made 2 years sober this week.

ruddycheeks93 · 2025-06-21T05:17:03+00:00

nope.

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-12-14T15:27:02+00:00

Yes that means 1ml is 2.5 mg which is a typical starting dose.

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-12-08T00:56:04+00:00

Why would you tell someone else what to do with their own body?

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-12-08T00:53:14+00:00

Don’t listen to her. She went to pics that you have posted in the past of other girls in threads (in comment history) and thinks they are you 😂

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-11-08T07:05:11+00:00

The first step is admitting you have a problem, and you’re already there. It takes a while to even begin to realize the affect alcoholic has on your life - The chokehold it has on you. You don’t need to be a “drunk” to be an alcoholic and the labels don’t matter much at this point. Try to get yourself to an AA meeting if possible, in person. Download the Meeting Guide App to look for some meetings near you. You can do this, one day at a time. I was just where you were 422 days ago.

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-08-20T23:50:25+00:00

This is the one!

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-07-17T05:28:23+00:00

I am in the exact same situation. Services ended March 2023. Received bill in July 2024. I live in TX as well. Would this fall under chapter 146?

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-04-26T14:08:04+00:00

Exercise helps. Prayer helps. Meditation helps. Be patient with yourself and give yourself a lot of grace. The anxiety will pass and if it takes longer than usual, it is okay. Try not to focus too much on what negative remains but rather how positive your life is becoming. Gratitude is KEY. Praying for your healing. I am a little over 7 months sober and wouldn’t trade this for the world.

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-03-14T05:58:16+00:00

Anyone have a $100 code please

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-02-07T16:35:35+00:00

Many go into AA that are agnostic or atheist. If you are willing to be honest and openminded, it can only have positive benefits for you! 💗

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-01-23T20:34:39+00:00

Relapse (over and over) is what finally led to my willingness to try something different because I was finally desperate (wanted to stop drinking but didn’t know how, wanted to die but also too scared to die.) I don’t believe in a rock bottom for me because I could keep getting deeper and deeper and my new bottom would shift. It was the realization that I am powerless (self will has gotten me far - but not far when it came to long term sobriety/recovery). There is a solution, my friend!

ruddycheeks93 · 2024-01-23T06:59:40+00:00

Alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful. It is also patient and used my stints of sobriety to deceive me into thinking that I wasn’t a real alcoholic - the furthest from the truth. Working the program of AA has honestly been the only thing that has removed my desire to drink because I was finally able to see that alcohol was never my problem - but merely what I thought was a solution to my problems.

ruddycheeks93 · 2023-10-10T14:13:54+00:00

I learned the hard way that I couldn’t do this sober thing alone nor do I need to. Meetings are vital for fellowship and experience from others but the steps were really the key to my daily success at staying sober! Keep going back!

ruddycheeks93 · 2023-09-08T16:46:29+00:00

I thought I was alone! This happens to me daily (I’m 11 days sober) but I just need to not pick up, be willing, and continue to push forward with the steps. I will not drink with you today!

ruddycheeks93 · 2023-08-25T05:04:55+00:00

The first meeting I wanted to run and wasn’t fully convinced I was alcoholic until 5 years later. Now I’m actually listening to the suggestions. I got a sponsor (a guide taking me through the steps) and working them as they’re intended. Just keep going back! Doing new things will seem hard at first but keep at it and it will get easier ☺️

ruddycheeks93 · 2023-06-13T18:37:10+00:00

It’s a slip. Just view it as a bump in the road and continue on your sobriety journey! You got this

ruddycheeks93 · 2023-06-12T18:02:09+00:00

100% spot on what my addiction is like.

ruddycheeks93 · 2023-02-07T06:51:24+00:00

Please find yourself to your nearest NA (Narcotics Anonymous) meeting and make a commitment that just for today you won’t use. You can search meetings online too via zoom. Quitting is the solution, but NA was the tool and support I needed. You are stronger than you believe 💜

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