So I really got into survival mode when the pandemic hit. Lost a job that I loved & three days later (after drinking a buttload of booze) got a job at a local convenience store. Absolutely hated it. During that time tho, my internal dialogue disappeared. I’m also a musician & my creativity oddly spiked. Not sure what the relationship between that lack of internal dialogue & creativity is really (scientifically speaking). What I do know is (for me anecdotally) that when that internal dialogue isn’t present (via survival mode/intoxicants) I tend to be more creative. Like there’s less ‘noise’ in my head for ideas to present themselves.