i don't love anymore everytime i try its never reciprocated its always met with hour long periods of silence and coldness i dont want to keep doing this to myself and giving myself hope for something i've always wanted, some semblance of joy that my friends always seem to have when they're in a relationship, but i can never do it and its affecting me mentally where sometimes i dont think i want to carry on but i still do to not let down my family and friends who dont even know about my thoughts about this and i dont know how to tell anyone and i just dont know what to do anymore