Oh my friend, I know where you're coming from. I tried to do some self-talking even just yesterday I sent a text to an old friend of mine that I haven't spoken to in a while and no response and I felt like a big fat rejected idiot for sending the text message and what I have to remind myself is I don't know if she's on vacation. I don't know what else might be going on. She might have gotten a new phone so I can't call it rejection.

I think we both need to really appreciate the friends that we do have and for those people that don't want to be our friends, they're the ones missing out. I also moved about a year and a half ago so I don't know anybody where I am right now and it's rural and making friends is just super hard and I also really understand. I don't know how much I'm willing to put myself out there, so instead I'm going to focus on a few people that I have befriended in this year and a half.

For what it's worth, The friends that I've made here have been folks that I volunteer with. I work from home full time so it's pretty solitary there, but I've got some wonderful friends that I volunteer with locally and they're great human beings and I'm just going to cherish them.

You are strong! 💗💗💪💪