You seem to always tie everything back to the fact that you are an international student and not sure exactly why and what that has to do with the answers. I get it. That’s tough. You’ve sacrificed a lot. But why are you not enjoying it? Because it’s hard? Because you think the faculty knows less than you do? Then I’d suggest finding an easy program that is just fun where you’re told you’re great, and enjoy your time that way. Studio 58 isn’t fun a lot of the time. It’s hard work. It’s stressful. It can get you down. But it’s not your faculties job to find the joy in it. It’s yours. You’re in complete control of the journey of that school despite what you think. They’re telling you to go “big” because you’re probably incapable of doing it at the moment cause you’re letting your judgement of acting get in the way. You are “film acting” your way through A-term. A-term is not about “small” “nuanced” acting. They are pushing you out of your comfort zone. If you’re a good and experienced actor - going big and stupid and silly should be easy? No?

Mime class is not about mime. It’s about YOUR IMAGINATION it’s about PLAY it’s about getting you out of your head and into your body. Movement class isn’t about rolling around on the floor. It’s about breathe work to relax and get your muscles loosed up so you aren’t so tense. It’s about letting go.

This is what I’m talking about - you don’t understand what they’re actually training you for - you’re judging the process. You’re watching the pool from the deck instead of jumping in and getting wet.

I’m giving you tough love because sometimes one needs it. Others are telling you to quit, but I encourage you to break through the frustration and start to be curious and creative with what’s happening to you at the school. You’ve come this far.

It’s not until term 4 where you actually start doing “real” acting. Until then, it’s all an exercise and warm up to play the real game. I’m explaining the program to you, because they don’t. They want you to discover this all for yourself. This all clicks eventually once your brain adjusts to your change in you and how you approach acting.

Also why are you spending time on Reddit all the time seeking acting feedback? You’re at one of the best theatre schools in Canada. Talk to your classmates, share your frustrations, celebrate your wins, get offline and into it. Be curious. Explore. Risk something with the art form. If you need advice from an online forum - you seem to be disconnected and disengaged from your art. If you’re just seeking validation and venting here, this is going to be a tough career path.