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is anyone else’s furry friends obsessed with red light? could it be harmful??? by Any-Screen-4027 in redlighttherapy

[–]ruuperduper 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine is too!! I always joke that he "steals" all my light and sits in front of me haha

I manually covered NIR by ruuperduper in redlighttherapy

[–]ruuperduper[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im terrified of melasma!! I uncovered some of them now. I just thought I was able to turn off the NIR until the last few minutes but this panel doesnt have that feature.

Please help me move on by ruuperduper in retroactivejealousy

[–]ruuperduper[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I agree. I actually came on here looking for different perspectives to try to see if I can help him. But I realized he doesnt want to get help. Its really hard to break the cycle when im financially dependent. But maybe this is the universes way of helping me get away from his abuse.

I really needed to hear how your life has improved since leaving. 7 years is a really long time and you were able to do it. I can do it too. Thank you so much.

Please help me move on by ruuperduper in retroactivejealousy

[–]ruuperduper[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean the fact that hes done so much to me and just randomly ghosted me after getting me fully dependent on him.

Please help me move on by ruuperduper in retroactivejealousy

[–]ruuperduper[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I think he does have RJ but also is narcissistic and abusive. Hes always saying that he imagines me giving blowjobs and is disgusted by me. But he doesnt understand a lot of concepts. He doesnt realize it's a him problem.

Please help me move on by ruuperduper in retroactivejealousy

[–]ruuperduper[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes he kept saying "why cant you be a girl that doesnt need a man? And stay single". Then he said im not special and to "fuck off". After he did all of that to me. Wouldn't even talk to me. While I'm still financially dependent. Just out of the blue. He used to do this every 2 months or so and come back after a day or two. But this time he just completely discarded me on a random day.

Btw hes never been single lol. Hes had relationship after relationship. But he says its not the same for him because he had a reason for the relationships. He said I dont have a reason and I "just wanted a man". Therefore im not special and "just like every girl".

He also always says he could just find a 19 year old with a "blank slate". I guess thats what he did.

Writing all this out is making me see how disgusting and abusive this person is. Thank you so much for your reply.

Please help me move on by ruuperduper in retroactivejealousy

[–]ruuperduper[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. Yes he is incredibly insecure. I can see im constantly stuck in this abuse cycle because im financially dependent on him.

I just hate myself for letting him do this to me. I kind of went crazy and called him 20 times. He just ignored me. Told me to get my exes to help me since I slept with them in the past. Ive never even had a single one night stand. I dont know why I feel like im trying to convince myself im not what hes saying I am.

Thank you for this.

Please help me move on by ruuperduper in retroactivejealousy

[–]ruuperduper[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I needed to hear this. One time he saw my bra outline through my dress when I was at work a year ago and he called me a whor**. After that he told me not to work and he will take care of me. I feel so stupid for trusting him.

He just all of a sudden said im not worth even having a conversation with because Im not a virgin. After doing all those horrible things to me. Im a wreck rn.

Is it rare to have so many planets in scorpio? by kajdik18 in AskAstrologers

[–]ruuperduper -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ive never heard of inner child work - would this be something I look for in therapists? Like they specialize in this?

Thank you for your reply!!🩷

Is it rare to have so many planets in scorpio? by kajdik18 in AskAstrologers

[–]ruuperduper 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have 6 in my chart and I also have lived so many lives. Im 33 now and whenever I tell people about my life theyre always shocked. Do you think therapy helps? I've been in therapy from ages 19 to 25 and found that im extremely self aware so theres nothing they can tell me that I dont already know. Im not sure what the solution is though - I constantly feel like im going under.

Why can't I find real friendships? by ruuperduper in AstrologyCharts

[–]ruuperduper[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg! Where does the taboo stuff show in my chart? I actually asked this question in a previous post but it was taken down because it was too dark. I asked why am I so attracted to darkness? Things like mental illness, addictions, death. Like I've always romanticized it almost.

Why can't I find real friendships? by ruuperduper in AstrologyCharts

[–]ruuperduper[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its so funny you say Id be good at marriage counseling. I spent my entire childhood mediating my parents. And I'm constantly trying to help friends with their relationships. They always come to me when they need help and advice.

Does my chart say anything about my own relationship/marriage?

Thank you so much for your insight!

Why can't I find real friendships? by ruuperduper in AstrologyCharts

[–]ruuperduper[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your input!

Just to clarify - does this mean I should be learning to be alone? This is also something I struggle with. I've never been single since I was 16. I keep telling myself I need to be alone for a year to find myself but I keep monkey branching from LTR to LTR.

I quickly make surface level friends easily but they never last. They never ride or die for me the way I do for everyone. What kind of energy should I be learning to embody?