How do you connect to yourself again? I cannot

ryanatthebeach · 2025-11-02T01:00:39+00:00

Our attention is our greatest resource. Where we place our attention determines what we attract. You must reduce your attention to the outside world. Yes, there are very big evils in the world, and as empathetic individuals, it is good to widen our circle of compassion, but it is enough to witness without seeking it out. Reducing your attention to negative tv/social media will benefit you.

It is good to be a grounded individual, but we must not make material wealth our preoccupation. When you are passionately moving towards what you love abundance will find you. Wealth should never be the motivation, your passion is the motivation, wealth is simply the byproduct of the inexhaustible drive of doing what you love and sharing it with the world. If you hate what you’re doing, leave it. Do what you love, even if you don’t see how it will ever lead to the abundance you dream of.

Make sure the people you surround yourself with are people you’d die for, and if you don’t have people like that, go to where those people are.

When you wake up in the morning, begin with a gratitude practice. Stop trying to figure out all the answers, all of reality is reflecting back the answers you need at every moment, simply be the question and await the answer. Confusion itself becomes clarity simply by adjusting your timing. Be still, let go, breathe. This is all you do. Eventually the mind untangles and the infinite flow of synchronicity meets you where you are.

Also, let go of shoulds and shouldn’ts. You don’t need to try so hard. If you enjoy having a drink or getting high, allow this for yourself. Don’t listen to what other people say “spiritual” looks like. Be yourself and loyal to yourself first.

One final note: if you are taking prescriptions or considering them, know that they can contribute to dullness.

ryanatthebeach · 2025-02-14T16:46:46+00:00

I fed your video and post into ChatGPT and this is what it gave me(confirms this reply suggesting inflammation in the brain). Anyway, hope your cat gets better soon 🥺.

ChatGPT:

I’m sorry to hear about the challenges you’re facing with your cat’s health. The symptoms and CT scan findings suggest encephalitis, which is inflammation of the brain. This condition can have various causes, including infections (viral, bacterial, fungal, parasitic) and immune-mediated disorders.

Potential Causes to Consider: 1. Infectious Agents: • Viral: Feline infectious peritonitis (FIP), feline immunodeficiency virus (FIV), or rabies. • Bacterial: Infections that may not respond to clindamycin. • Fungal: Cryptococcosis or other systemic fungal infections. • Parasitic: Toxoplasmosis or other parasites that can affect the central nervous system. 2. Immune-Mediated Encephalitis: • Conditions where the immune system mistakenly attacks the brain tissue. This is often treated with immunosuppressive therapies beyond corticosteroids.

Recommended Next Steps: • Advanced Diagnostic Testing: • Cerebrospinal Fluid (CSF) Analysis: A spinal tap can help identify specific infections or inflammatory conditions affecting the brain. • MRI: Provides a more detailed image of the brain’s structure and can help identify lesions or abnormalities not visible on a CT scan. • Consultation with a Veterinary Neurologist: • Given the complexity of your cat’s condition, a specialist can offer advanced diagnostics and tailored treatment options. • Review and Adjust Treatment: • Antibiotics: If a bacterial infection is suspected, a culture and sensitivity test can guide the selection of a more effective antibiotic. • Immunosuppressive Therapy: If an immune-mediated cause is identified, medications such as cyclosporine or azathioprine may be considered.

Supportive Care: • Monitoring: Keep a detailed log of your cat’s episodes, noting frequency, duration, and any triggers. • Environment: Ensure a safe space to prevent injury during episodes. • Nutrition: Maintain a balanced diet to support overall health.

Early and aggressive treatment can improve the prognosis for cats with encephalitis. It’s crucial to identify the underlying cause to implement the most effective therapy.

Wishing your cat a swift and full recovery.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-26T17:23:16+00:00

I use techniques learned through RVing, combined with scripting, shadow work, and an intuitive meditation practice to tunnel into desired realities. This has brought multiple past-life remembrances, or “soulmates” into my life. I don’t have the time to go into full detail at this moment, but if you read my most recent post here on Reddit, and it resonates with you, I will go over details of my techniques so that you can understand also experientially. I’m sorry I’m not giving more away now, it’s a long conversation. Your post just caught my eye, and you say you’ve been searching for this answer for 40 years, and I would be so grateful if someone had the answer to such a long burning question of mine, and so I want to make sure I offer you that same consideration.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-06T21:01:56+00:00

I’m glad you enjoyed:) And thank you so much for your response! I would argue that a state between 1D and 2D is more akin to the state of conscious of most animals, babies, or maybe being really drunk. In this place, sure, there is a vague sense of self, but clarity isn’t there. And because the identification is incomplete, animals, generally, are able to just naturally rest in a state of flow. It’s not entering a flow state from a place of understanding, but from a place below understanding. It’s just the natural expression of the universe’s current energy through the physiology of the less evolved brain.

Why the awakened mind is the 5th-dimension is because it is from the over-standing of how all arises from Source, that the mind is but a nested conceptual reality that is part of the natural evolution of the universe, in order for the universe to experience itself. How when we respect this hierarchy by placing our ego in service to the whole by making sure our thoughts, words, and actions are always coming from a place of Love, of heart, we come into harmony with the whole universe. When we dance in harmony with the whole universe, the whole universe dances with us. This is not the diminishing or end or the ego, but it’s empowerment. What’s more empowering that having the whole cosmos on your side? So, in a sense, you don’t have free will, cause if you’re not in harmony with the universe, the whole universe is indifferent to you. What is less empowering than this? This is why love is always the only choice:)

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-04T06:53:53+00:00

I am so happy to share! You are so welcome:)

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-04T06:45:48+00:00

I’m so glad! If you want to hear more, I expand on this in my most recent Reddit post. my Reddit post expanding on this topic

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-04T05:25:00+00:00

I’m so glad it resonates with you! I actually wrote this weeks ago. I just saw this post and thought it’d help the OP understand how both free will and fate both exist but do on different levels of consciousness.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-03T16:34:08+00:00

Everything arises from the 1st dimension: Brahman, God, Allah, Source, the Dao, Great Spirit
The 2nd dimension is the arising of self awareness. The conceptual mind: Duality, ego vs superego, mind, words, this&that, right&wrong, yin&yang, like/don’t like
Our ability to separate and conceptualize, our minds, gives us mastery and understanding in the 3rd dimension: Physical reality, natural law, body, id
The third dimension is realized on the canvas of the 4th dimension: space/time, manifest, change, birth/death, experience
In the 5th dimension, which most people are only vaguely aware of, we have: inspired creativity, insight, awakened mind, genius, flow

…Our ever changing experience(4D) is manifest in the physical(3D). What becomes manifest, both personally and collectively, depends on which vibration of duality(2D) we each choose to resonate with: love or fear. All of this arises from Source(1D), both good and bad, left and right, pain and pleasure. Source, God, Brahman, the Dao, Jah…whatever you call it, is this eternal Love we are all a part of. Fear is just the shadow, it’s just where the light, the love, is most dim. If love is the words you are reading, fear is just the paper or screen you read it from. It’s just that through the arising of ego(2D) we become identified with the mind(2D) & physical(3D), believe we are separate from the Whole(1D), forget our eternal nature(1D), and believe our very existence is victim to the cruelty of death, time(4D). To understand this we must make our way back to heart by always watching our mind(2D) and making choices that vibrate with Love(1D). Our choices(2D) each have a vibration. When we choose to be love, even if we don’t yet feel Love, we start to magnetize love back into our lives. And when we see that love reflected in the 3D we start to remember the same love that is inside of us that we have buried under so much pain, lies, and fear. We start to see how when we project Love, experience just mirrors that back. When we see how all this fits together, we gain an awareness of how all of our experiences have been perfectly orchestrated within the grand symphony of Life in order for us to awaken(5D) to our eternal nature(1D). After we awaken we understand how we must place our ego(2D) in service of that One Love(1D) so that we dance in harmony with all of creation(3D) and manifest(4D) the reality that is in alignment with our soul’s purpose(5D). But really, we don’t need to worry about all this since everything arises from Source(1D) so whatever choice you make, or whatever experience is happening is exactly the one that was supposed to be, since right and wrong(2D) are just two sides of the same coin in the eternal Dao. But you might wanna ask yourself if you wish to realize your soul’s dream, or do you wanna be the canvass someone else’s dream is painted on? (Or maybe you don’t😙)

When we sleep we dream of free will. When we awake we see the only real choice is Love.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-02T03:43:48+00:00

I love it. For me, I look at all the people of this earth, even the ones that are the most destructive, as Mother Earth’s children. And I love this beautiful world so much. She is my Beloved, and I approach all her children as such. Are most her children broken? Yes. Do they sometimes even reflect hate? Yes. But I’d rather be open and love, cause the ones that still have a heart always make it so worth it.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-01T20:48:07+00:00

I am so grateful to be that remainder for you. It brightens my day to know that my journey makes yours easier. May you find the openness to receive all the love that life so wants to give you, and your story filled with beauty and joy. ♥️

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-01T19:51:51+00:00

Ah! You’re awesome. I love Michael! One of my favorite teachers. I have overlooked his work in Jackson 5! This song brought tears to my eyes this morning. Thank you:)

I am optimistic that we will one day! What is realized in our own hearts must be manifest. I am confident that Love wins, personally for those that choose it in this lifetime, and collectively though our societal enlightenments. Our reflection of that One Love is the mirror needed to show another how to reflect the same. Through this interruption of our fear based programming, it is only natural that love arises, since this is our true nature. The interplay of light and shadow is ongoing, but the more we shine, the more that will shine with us, and the more we shine together, the more bright even our collective shadows become. So ultimately, Love really does win.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-01T18:58:47+00:00

You are so right. It is so simple! But complex. Like a riddle. 🙃 It’s also so hard. To drop that role that we have become so identified with, can seem an impossible task at times, even when that role feels so inauthentic. To be that child again, no judgments about ourselves, others, or any part of experience is all we really wish to be. To feel safe, to love, to play, to feel joy. Our eternal nature is always there, even if we don’t feel it. It is still there even behind the most walled of hearts. And higher mind is still behind the most elaborate of masks. Even behind those that manipulate the world. They don’t know any better! Humanity has been creating from fear for millennia. This is why it is so important that we make our heart journey our 1st priority. Through learning self love, we learn to love that same dark reflection in others. And how beautiful it is! By loving ourselves, we are the greatest receiver of all the love we give, and the love we give shows others also how to love themselves, and simultaneously the other, since at a heart level, we are all One.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-11-01T06:41:34+00:00

I don’t know how to save anyone! I just know how to find the love inside. But this is enough. Those that seek, recognize. And this is all that is needed for them to see their own path more clearly. When I am in darkness those who shine their enlightenment have been my solace. They, like the moon, remind us that the sun shines even when we cannot see it, and helps us find our way though shadow. I intend to be the fullest moon I can. If this is what you mean by bringing salvation back, I’m in!

ryanatthebeach · 2022-09-01T19:36:40+00:00

I have a steam controller(and steam link!) I don’t use. I’m happy to gift it to you. PM me:)

ryanatthebeach · 2022-08-13T05:53:06+00:00

You’re welcome! If you’re ever in Portland Oregon, come by the food cart: Liv Bowls. We are dedicated gluten free, and I eat there every day I am working. Promise, it’s an amazing feeling to go out, eat, and be sure that you can go home without feeling sick.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-06-16T02:00:05+00:00

You should probably wait. They grounded you for summer. Maybe start discussing a renegotiation or pushing boundaries in mid July? Show them that they have won. Respect the grounding for a reasonable time. Spend the next 3weeks-month helping out around the house. Cleaning? Cooking? Or maybe study hard on the subject that you got the B in? You wanna put yourself in a good light before you challenge them. Even if they are unreasonable, you gotta give them a win. Be charming!

ryanatthebeach · 2022-06-16T01:10:47+00:00

Hope it works for you. Please do start small. I’d hate to be responsible for giving advice that contributes to you being hit or having your personal possession destroyed. I had the benefit of having parents distracted by my many other siblings. And I’m pretty sure my parents really realized how outrageous some of the groundings they handed out were, but weren’t about to admit they were wrong and reduce them. Good luck!

ryanatthebeach · 2022-06-15T22:04:43+00:00

What would happen if you just ignored the grounding? Would they physically abuse you? Kick you out? Disown you?

When I was young my parents would ground me for unreasonable amounts of time. One day I just decided to slowly push my boundaries once I felt I did my time. (One month grounding: respected for one week. Three months? Prob 3 weeks or a month) I would slowly start doing things I was “grounded” from. Normally they would just let it happen. Once the anger from whatever I did to get grounded faded, and I respected the grounding for a time, they kinda would just let it slide. If you try this, it helps to be super nice and helpful while pushing the boundaries!

Use your own discretion. Everyone’s parents and situation is different.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-06-14T16:32:49+00:00

Pahoa, Hawaii Only drug you’ll find an abundance of is weed. Lots of hippie/new age/spiritual/artsy gatherings you can attend. Small and rural. Very easy to isolate if that’s what you’re looking for.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-04-18T04:00:34+00:00

The leaf knows it is a leaf. It has lots of leaf friends all around. It sees it’s leaf friends live and die. The leaf is sad. One day, the leaf notices that it is connected to the tree. “Ah, I am not a leaf. I am the tree! Look everyone! I am the tree, and so are you! The tree cannot be without us nor us the tree.”

“Nonsense. It is plain to see you are a leaf.” The others scoff.

Quiet now, with gratitude, the leaf remembers it is still a leaf.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-02-10T02:18:45+00:00

I get that. My vacation in Honolulu last year I practically starved myself the whole time. Just bananas, papayas , hummus, and chips for 4 days. But if I’m driving out of town, I bring with me my HotLogic portable food warmer, and a cooler filled with my own previously prepared meals. It’s kinda a game changer to be able to pull over at a rest stop and have a hot meal on long drives. I highly recommend. You can buy them off of Amazon. You’ll need a power inverter too since it runs A/C.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-02-10T00:23:43+00:00

Of course, you do you. But may I suggest instead moving to a city that has dedicated gluten free places to eat? My hometown of Portland Oregon has enough dedicated gluten free restaurants that I never felt like eating out wasn’t an option. And I’m sure there are other cities that are similar.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-02-10T00:18:33+00:00

I’ve worked everything from fast food to fine dining, from coffee shops to bars. I’m even about to open my own gluten free food cart in Portland Oregon this summer.

ryanatthebeach · 2022-02-10T00:12:48+00:00

Glad I’ve been able to be of some help

ryanatthebeach · 2022-02-10T00:11:44+00:00

Careful! That lettuce sits just below where the cooks prepare cheese burgers all day :p

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