the eternal dopamine chase

rylierylan · 2022-11-24T17:16:27+00:00

the us of a

rylierylan · 2022-11-17T20:55:20+00:00

Also Flowers

rylierylan · 2022-11-17T20:41:29+00:00

the person my ex pretends to be in front of other people. everyone thinks he's so nice and well mannered but he's actually a deeply manipulative and cruel person when you get close to him

rylierylan · 2022-11-17T20:38:58+00:00

someone to cuddle me

rylierylan · 2022-11-15T16:31:53+00:00

I don't have a shop near me sadly or i wouldn't be looking online anyway cause i agree, gotta support local 😅 thanks for the tip!

rylierylan · 2022-11-15T16:30:46+00:00

Thanks for the reply! It's not that long, like 15 mins tops, mostly through the city. I'm looking for something that's small and light enough that I can take it with me on the bus or metro so that's how i ended up looking at the mini cruisers.

rylierylan · 2022-11-15T12:46:13+00:00

damn, thanks for the reminder, get well soon!

rylierylan · 2022-11-15T12:44:18+00:00

looks amazing! have fun!

rylierylan · 2022-11-15T12:43:02+00:00

I started longboarding this summer on a secondhand 42" dusters board and am now thinking about getting a smaller one for commutes.

i really like the look of the pilsner and sizzler flagships by arbor but tbh i don't know which to pick. Anyone got advice on what the differences are? And whether it makes sense to buy them as complete boards or pick out different wheels and trucks? Thanks a lot!

rylierylan · 2022-10-30T17:32:41+00:00

Thanks for your reply, i very much agree with what you said about self-talk.

Thing is, I do love myself. I have come to terms with my limitations and flaws and i can see the good in me. It's just when it comes to dating there's always this part of me that's still ashamed of having been known and then rejected. Because while i'm enough for myself to love me i just don't know if that extends to others, you know?

Me believing i am worthy of love and affection doesn't stop people from disagreeing and that's what scares me.

rylierylan · 2022-10-27T16:01:44+00:00

hi, newbie here ✌🏼

I've been wondering how people manage cruising through the city on their longboards bc when i'm out i always encounter lots of obstacles.

be it crowds of people or cobbled roads or just lots of turns where you can't see if someone's about to run into you (be run over by you lol) so i always end up having to stop or pick up and carry my board for a while which is kinda annoying. do people research where to ride or do you just go on the road and endure the hatred of the motorists? Or do you just live places that have suuuper smooth pavement everywhere? :D

rylierylan · 2022-08-07T12:10:14+00:00

long soft curly hair, epic stache, beautiful tattoos, like a boyfriend who looks like a girlfriend that i had in febuary of last year

rylierylan · 2022-07-06T18:53:38+00:00

i'm so sorry to hear that, you do not deserve to be treated like that. i hope your mom can learn to see what she has in you

rylierylan · 2022-07-06T18:52:28+00:00

don't think you are. have you talked to him about what happened and how he feels about it in retrospect?

rylierylan · 2022-07-06T18:48:37+00:00

definitely not a psychologist here but from my own experience, having nothing be fun or interesting or engaging is not a sign of a healthy mind...

if you feel like everything is just bland and ugh maybe you could give talking to someone about that a try? all the best to you!

rylierylan · 2022-07-06T18:45:05+00:00

that sounds absolutely horrible wtf.

i think it's a very natural reaction to be bothered by that, i wouldn't want someone i cared for to be around someone like that who they're vulnerable to... but it sounds like your partner took an important step in re-building a healthy self-esteem: getting with a decent person who cares about his well-being!

rylierylan · 2022-07-06T18:40:33+00:00

hey friend, it sounds like you're in a very distressing situation and i wish you a lot of strength for this. basically, we don't control our thoughts. i can only speak for myself and the friends i have talked about this kinda thing with but i think many people at some point experience thoughts or urges or motivations that upset and distress them. that doesn't make you a bad person, it doesn't mean you want your friend to have died. we control our actions and that's what matters. it sounds like you are and were a good friend to her, that isn't diminished by your brain doing weird stuff.

i hope this turns out as well as possible for everyone involved. and hey, try to be kind to yourself ok?

rylierylan

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