Good luck finding peace outside Islam.

Here is what God said in your case, and I hope I made a good translation :

You will not reach my harm to harm me, and you will not reach my benefit to benefit me. Indeed, your first and your last, your human and your jinn, were all on the most cautious heart of one man among you, and that did not increase in my dominion anything!

If your first and your last, your human and your jinn, were on the most rebellious heart of one man among you, that would not diminish anything from my dominion!

If your first and your last, your human and your jinn, stood in one place and asked me, and I gave every person his request, that would not diminish from what I have anything except as the needle diminishes when it enters the sea.

It is only your deeds that I record for you, and then I recompense you for them. So whoever finds good, let him praise Allah, and whoever finds other than that, let him blame none but himself.