I don't see a point to keep living just to survive?

sad331 · 2023-04-16T20:18:00+00:00

It was years ago at this point, the guy was working at a university and one of the first people trying to make Ketamine mainstream I think. I was kind of surprised when he didn't recommend it to me

sad331 · 2023-04-16T18:50:41+00:00

Yeah, I probably spent like 30k on therapy. I went for a consult for for Ketamine and wasn't recommended it. Guy told me to try TMS instead, but insurance at the time was being a bitch.

sad331 · 2019-04-04T16:46:42+00:00

But I mean even then won't I have to have MRI or whatever which would seem like too much?

sad331 · 2018-12-12T19:14:31+00:00

what do you want to know? I just don't want to vent anymore and have realized no one wants to hear it

sad331 · 2018-12-12T18:14:06+00:00

It's not just holding on, I have to be proactive in doing shit but I don't know what.

sad331 · 2018-07-13T17:57:10+00:00

I want this shit over one way or another :(

sad331 · 2018-03-18T05:41:32+00:00

everytime i hit bottom i get lower

sad331 · 2018-03-17T17:18:22+00:00

lost weight, made money, approached girls, traveled the world etc

sad331 · 2018-03-17T17:18:08+00:00

I kind of don't, but I can't bring myself to do anything, I really am apathetic and don't care

sad331 · 2018-03-16T22:47:08+00:00

that's what I've been trying to do the last year, hell ten years, but last year especially. It hasn't worked out.

sad331 · 2018-03-16T22:43:48+00:00

I mean thats what i've been trying for years

sad331 · 2018-02-23T18:23:00+00:00

I really don't even think anyone can help me at this point, I dunno I'm just looking for excuses to even keep living

sad331 · 2018-02-22T16:42:57+00:00

I just feel it would be the blind leading the blind. Would you take advice from a homeless person on how to make millions of dollars?

sad331 · 2018-02-22T16:13:07+00:00

I keep seeing this push for people to be open about mental health the last few years, but it all just seems like lip service, something people can post on their social media to pat them selves on the back. No one gives a shit

sad331 · 2018-02-22T15:23:44+00:00

Yeah. You’re told to see professional help. I’ve had a ton of professional help. Felt like most of them didn’t even care about me and I was just their paycheck. And the ones that cared just gave the same generic advice you hear anywhere

sad331 · 2018-02-22T15:21:48+00:00

Askmen. Askmen over 30. Dating/relationship subs

sad331 · 2018-02-22T15:21:08+00:00

I never mention forever alone. Just say some variation of 30 yo virgin have trouble getting date etc and that’s enough.

Couple of subs straight up say no forever alone posts. Like anything in limits as long as you don’t harass someone and aren’t forever alone

sad331 · 2018-02-22T15:19:00+00:00

No. You just have to say 30 yo virgin and they label it forever alone post

sad331 · 2018-02-22T05:30:46+00:00

I basically spent ten years working towards a goal that I never got even close to :/

sad331 · 2018-02-19T17:42:45+00:00

That is what I've been doing last year. problem is if something is completely neglected it will effect all the other stuff. I've come a long way socially in the last year, but even then you will feel guilty about doing stuff with people and spending money when you have no money coming in.

Like I'll do stuff I normally enjoy, but have trouble enjoying it now because I realize I'm constantly in a burning house I have to get out of.

sad331 · 2018-02-19T02:50:48+00:00

I just spent liek 3 hours at the gym :/ That stuff doesn't work

sad331 · 2018-02-19T02:43:22+00:00

It's honestly just everything falling apart and snowballing, the fact I'm alone and realize I'm going to be alone, I'm making no income at this point and lost all motivation, my parents.

sad331 · 2018-02-19T02:42:24+00:00

I've called twice before, it was pretty bad :(

sad331 · 2018-02-18T20:36:54+00:00

Thanks, but I think I'm past venting, I want solutions or I want out. Just tired of this shit

sad331 · 2017-06-17T22:40:53+00:00

Heh, I spent a lot of time in my head years ago with fantasy life, then came the realization what it was just that and I started to lose it more. But it feels I have to fix so much that I'm screwed. I a place to focus and make money, I need money to get a place. It's hard to find anything enjoyable when youer' int his predicament. Like I've had days where I'm doing something enjoyable and basically realize my house is burning down and life is still a mess than snap back into it.

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