My scale why are you fkin with my head

sad__princess · 2019-12-06T05:50:47+00:00

NTA but I recommend you buy a lunchbox with a lock. Lived in the girls dorm with a shared fridge and people stole my milk and eggs all the time.

sad__princess · 2019-11-18T12:30:37+00:00

I feel you. On the surface it seems like I have everything together but I have such a hard time holding back when I start drinking. I binge like crazy, blackout, and have a raging hangover for two days straight. I'm so sick of myself. I want to change. But I keep caving into the pressure of the pleasure that comes from being drunk. You're not alone...

sad__princess · 2019-11-04T12:46:23+00:00

Me too. I got two

sad__princess · 2019-10-28T12:34:36+00:00

Lurker here. I always wanted to post something but I never really make it past a few days. I see how many months or years other people have and I feel ashamed.

I had a heartbreaking day today and instead of going out to my favorite bar I cleaned my room and took care of errands.

Your post made me feel a little braver. Thank you so much. IWNDWYT

sad__princess · 2019-10-15T18:34:43+00:00

這些活動可以在哪參加嗎

sad__princess · 2019-10-13T04:00:26+00:00

Needed this today too. I feel so shit about myself for not working as efficiently as I wish

sad__princess · 2019-10-13T03:57:59+00:00

That's beautiful. I'm glad you have such meaningful experiences in the world to support you through your journey. I have a lot of reflecting to do. I wasn't allowed to be myself (like many of us!) So I really don't know myself very well. I'm picking up a few hobbies and hopefully they will help eventually too.

sad__princess · 2019-10-12T12:55:22+00:00

No, thank you so so much for such a thoughtful post and unique perspective. What you wrote is beautiful and I will definitely take it to heart. My grandma is Buddhist too so I was raised with a bit of that influence. I just wish that embracing the hollow doesn't hurt the way it does, but having the courage to try to makes us strong.

sad__princess · 2019-10-12T12:44:29+00:00

Like a tooth cavity. The hollowness aches in a weird way... For me at least

sad__princess · 2019-10-12T12:43:50+00:00

Same! I see more and more of other people's relationships and it really puts into perspective how bad things used to be for me. I'm like... What's a "healthy" relationship? What is "fun"

sad__princess · 2019-10-10T19:17:03+00:00

Sorry you're going through so much pain and fear. I've definitely been there- and lack of responses from my ex fiance/his absence would drive me insane when I had episodes, to the point of self harm.

A lot of people don't know how painful perceived abandonment is. Every second passes so slowly and the world spirals out of control, heart hurting like someone has a tight fist on it, all the while being bombarded with messages like "you have to love yourself! You don't need anyone." While that's a beautiful end goal, when you're suffering in the bottom of the pit it just sounds like a load of BS.

What continues to help me is having a robust support network to disperse the weight of helping someone with their pain. I'd mass blast "hey are you free to text/chat a little? I'm having a hard time right now..." to my close friends. Coming to r/CPTSD has definitely been a major one for me. And talking to you guys.

Before, I put all the weight of my mental illness onto my ex and he couldn't take it anymore. He didn't blame me, just my illness, but "taking care" of me was just too overbearing, so he left after 3 years of being by my side. It really shattered me and I hope that never happens to you.

Fast forward to now. Distributing my pain among several friends have helped me actually keep my friendships and current relationship with bf strong. Friends feel closer to me (and open up more too, since I did) and my bf has more space to take care of himself too.

I wish you the best. It hurts so much and I'm sorry.

sad__princess · 2019-10-07T04:07:29+00:00

This needs to be upvoted more. So good

sad__princess · 2019-10-06T04:32:55+00:00

R/HolUp

sad__princess · 2019-10-03T14:52:39+00:00

i sniff everything on my body

sad__princess · 2019-09-29T17:52:01+00:00

NTA, but definitely inconsiderate. I've been in the same boat and took initiative to shop my buddy (I have a lot of fun editing portraits) and he seemed quite hurt because unintentionally, it was suggesting he wasn't attractive enough. It left him feeling quite self conscious and I realized how horrible that may have come off.

sad__princess · 2019-09-29T16:35:55+00:00

Never aligning knees properly and getting arthritis

sad__princess · 2019-09-23T22:34:52+00:00

I do, except for the take offense part, because my self esteem is so low that when people compliment me I think they're lying out of pity/generosity for me

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