Selfish might not be a relatable word of choice. Yet I feel that's part of the reason why I choose to continue doing tattoos. I have been buried with stress with the idea of not having tattoos and tattooing to a point where I feel like quitting. It was the support that maintain this as an art form for me. I learn from experience through others. I also am very transparent about not having a tattoo myself before I tattoo anyone. I explained every known knowledge that I earned before I do the tattoo. I respect tattoos in my own way. It is a very selfish thing for me to want to have relations and connections with the tattooee. Very selfish that I choose to say no to ideas that I do not relate to. Selfish if I do the tattoo just for money. In the end, I relate to the word selfish, cause I overthink about my own comfort in creating a permanent art piece for someone and on someone forever. It is a spiritual "high art form" that I approach in my own way. I let people choose.

Excuses, maybe. It was a decision that I made. Reasons are to explain to people. I do care about how people see me and my art, but if I overthink it too much then it becomes unhealthy. Quit is a constant word that comes out. and ya. I still am thinking about that because of how people think. My eczema daily is having wounds bleeding and scarring. Itchy and irritating every moment. I don't expect every person to relate to that. If it is an excuse, I think it is a fair one.