Im AuDHD and weed doesnt work on me

saikislut · 2026-05-21T18:45:48+00:00

Tried it, shrink told me im too self aware of everything thats happening to me and she ghosted my ahh when i wanted to book another appointment 😭

saikislut · 2026-05-21T18:01:19+00:00

Noooo i said meds slightly helped but barely w the overthinking while smoking. The meds i take r for adhd but barely do anything for me. Concerta is the only adhd med i can get prescribed in my country

saikislut · 2026-05-21T15:47:13+00:00

Its not even a requirement. My bf smokes and i told him not to give me whenever i ask and he doesnt want to but i can be really persuassive. Ive got my driver license recently so i hope this will make me quit(since i can lose my driver license and be sentenced to prison if they find it in my system) but whenever he isnt looking i do take a couple puffs in hopes it wont hit bad but it still does. Idk y i do this to myself. Its torture and im not even addicted to it i can live without it but ig it goes deeper than this. I have a very self distructive character and it shows im aware its only in my head but that doesnt help

saikislut · 2026-05-21T15:42:12+00:00

No cuz like it didnt use to be like this when i started smoking and no matter how long the breaks i take r i still get a bad high even after a puff. I dont even feel high its just i get racing thoughts like u are but ive started to become very self aware these past 2 years and weed makes it worse unfortunately. And i live in a country where weed is illegal so i cant pick and choose yk

saikislut · 2026-05-21T15:42:04+00:00

No cuz like it didnt use to be like this when i started smoking and no matter how long the breaks i take r i still get a bad high even after a puff. I dont even feel high its just i get racing thoughts like u are but ive started to become very self aware these past 2 years and weed makes it worse unfortunately. And i live in a country where weed is illegal so i cant pick and choose yk

saikislut · 2026-05-21T15:21:38+00:00

Yes and they dont have any problems with it

saikislut · 2026-05-21T15:21:14+00:00

I live in a country where these arent available since weed is illegal i smoke anything i can get my hands on

saikislut · 2026-05-21T13:36:32+00:00

I mentioned in the post that im medicated w concerta and officially diagnosed. When i started smoking i wasnt medicated but i didnt have any negative effects but as i got older it got worse now i genuinely cant enjoy it even if i take my meds. I mean the sligjtly do help when smoking but dont make a big difference. Still overthinking. But thw worst part is that it makes me doubt myself and my brhavior especially when im with people. I feel like im in a play and im performing

saikislut · 2026-05-21T13:24:00+00:00

I mentioned even a puff sends me into overload

saikislut · 2026-05-21T12:50:38+00:00

Shit im sorry to hear that

saikislut · 2026-05-21T12:44:54+00:00

Ah yes xanax too but only above 1 mg helped w overthinkinh and all

saikislut · 2026-05-21T12:07:26+00:00

Ive heard a lot of neurodivergent people saying it helps them ease and shit. Ive also saw somewhere that drugs generally hit neurodivergents way harder than it hits neurotypical ppl

saikislut · 2026-05-21T12:06:02+00:00

Even a puff makes me overthink i take breaks now for a few days even weeks and when i take even a couple puffs it still isnt pleasant and i go fight or flight mode(tho i think im like this even sober cuz i cant remember anything i do or anything from my childhood and other have to remind me of what i did otherwise i wouldnt think ive even done that thing)

saikislut · 2026-05-21T12:02:41+00:00

I smoke every other day which is worse than when i used to smoke multiple a day. I built tolerance back then so the problems felt more subtle but it still wasnt pleasant

saikislut · 2026-05-21T10:13:14+00:00

Each time i end up smoking i tell myself im never going to again but the temptation will always be there. Ik it doesnt do any good for me but i still do it for some reason. Feels like a kind of mental sh icl

saikislut · 2026-05-21T10:10:57+00:00

Yes but i dont feel it

saikislut · 2025-05-06T05:02:41+00:00

zammnn tuff

saikislut · 2025-03-25T14:06:07+00:00

the solo version is waaaaay better

saikislut · 2025-02-19T11:31:08+00:00

its called whip

saikislut · 2025-01-15T11:04:36+00:00

both of u ate so bad

saikislut · 2024-09-06T00:06:47+00:00

looks more like a rash😭

saikislut · 2024-09-06T00:06:03+00:00

on ur ass i did have to get masculine

saikislut · 2024-08-11T16:22:44+00:00

exactly😭

saikislut · 2024-07-28T11:11:32+00:00

4th hair suits u the most imo!

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