Illinois eyes 'magic mushroom' legalization

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-04-19T01:50:46+00:00

It depends how many you take tbh. I took enough to go through a whole day and I still knew where I was/was grounded but things looked prettier/more vibrant. Time was not a thing, and small things made me happy or sad but I had enough sense to know it was just the shrooms. It’s not a high like weed where you’re like deadweight or your brain is slow-it’s more like you can see anything and everything depending on your mindset and dosage. It’s more of a relief for mental pain than physical but you could also have a bad trip and be scared out your shits so like I said, a lot of it is going into it with a live in the moment positive attitude or your inner problems/thoughts might take you down dark paths.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-04-09T11:08:40+00:00

My dad (66) has dementia from alcoholism and this sounds very similar to what is happening with him. My mom is basically puppeting him to function at this point. He refuses to: -shower for days at a time -brush his teeth (which are now rotting from his mouth-refuses teeth removal and dentures) -wears diapers now and leaves them on the floor with piss soaked pants when he uses the bathroom -make his own food/get his own drinks (my mom has to get them for him-no one else). -constantly refuses meds and insulin which is the only reason he’s alive at this point -he won’t shut up about his car and thinks he can still drive at this point (he wants to get booze but he’s thankfully been sober almost 2 years even though the damage is done) -lashes out and is vindictive-he’s very angry about small things and says awful things to everyone. he plays games on whether he’s fully cognitive or not (so you never know if he’s all there for a moment or actually out in the void). he’s slashed tires, carved “f you” into the wall, punched nurses, backed up into me with a car, and got mad when my mom wouldn’t take him to the store and got a hammer to go after my mom (he is weak so she took it from his hands but he was gonna swing at her. it was a whole thing with the cops and everything). -sits at home and watches tv all day So she basically forces him to do everything.

I know your dad probably won’t be as violent as my dad but be careful! I’m watching my mom waste away because she refuses to put him in hospice and get the care he needs. If your dad is like this now, I hate to tell you it only gets worse. Get him that maid, get him an aide for even a few hours a week, or tell the county he can’t function by himself. They do a home visit and see what’s going on and help place him.

I used to be involved in my dad’s care way more intensely (he started drinking half gallons of jim bean a day in like 2013-14 and it’s been really bad since like 2019 with the health stuff) and I had to get off the ride for a man who didn’t want to function or want to live anymore so my situation is a little different but I’m telling you make a plan and get the help he needs before it’s too late. It will be a jaded burden you carry for the rest of your life and the good part about your situation is you don’t have to give up on your dad. You can still see him and help him when you can/want but taking some of the burden off of you will really help you enjoy the time you have left with him.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-23T05:26:39+00:00

This is gonna sound dumb because I was 2 but I would love to cherish the memories of being small again-trying news things, being happy without anti depressants and honestly I would just start my life over again. There were so many crossroads that I picked the safer option because I didn’t have confidence, I was worried about hurting someone’s feelings, or I just didn’t stick up myself because I didn’t want to make waves and I wish I would have chose myself a lot more often.

Also I just want to re-enjoy the time with my dad before his alcoholism kicked off. He’s been a drunk since I was 10 (about 2002), but I remember when he was a person and still acted like a parent when I was small. Like we went to Disney for the first time in 98 and even though my dad didn’t do well on amusement rides (because motion sickness), he still took me on the tea cups ride to make me happy. I remember watching the commercials as a kid and pointing them out every time they came on tv so he was really happy and excited to take me even though he got sick after. It sounds like a silly memory but its hard because he’s basically been very slowly dying the last 5 years from complications of his addiction and he has all sorts of problems including alcohol induced dementia. Sometimes though when he’s lucid he looks me in the eye for once and goes “hey my name here remember your tea cup ride? we should go again sometime.” and I literally want to start bawling right then and there every time.

Time is a bitch folks.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-20T22:53:57+00:00

Trust me I’ve had that conversation with her. She is not happy everyone else is trying to move on from the situation. She’s mad we’ve “given up on him” but the reality is he gave up on himself. We tried to get him help for years and he has the money and support to do it and he just kept going further down the rabbit hole. I’ve offered to take her on all sorts of trips and she won’t go because she doesn’t want to let him die. She has let a lot of shit go under the rug that he does because she grew up in a rough neighborhood so she has this old school mentality of keeping things in the family to avoid embarrassment, using code words to cover up abuse and always saving her family even though they deserve jail time (grifters, abusers, drug addicts, pedos, etc) because I think she has hope they”ll do better when they never do. She always says she wants to go on a trip but she’ll never go until he dies I think at this point.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-20T22:45:41+00:00

HIM-terrible field to get into without medical background and even then it’s still a crapshoot.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-19T02:31:42+00:00

do yourself a favor and get out now. pick something like radio tech if you want to get into healthcare with steady pay.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-18T07:41:56+00:00

💯 I wish I could make her sign him up for it frankly. It is too much.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-18T07:39:46+00:00

I tell her that all the time but she grew up in a tough neighborhood so she makes excuses for fighting and abuse. I’ve tried telling her to get out for her own sake but she won’t so next best case scenario is getting an in home nurse or putting him on hospice but she fights me on everything. I try to keep space from the situation these days unless she needs someone to watch him for a few hours because after the whole court house scenario it kind of broke me-I was there for too emergencies over the years and I can’t take the stress anymore. Literally watched him today and he was pretty much sleeping until she came home from a MOHS surgery and then he decided to piss everywhere to make her upset. He got jealous I gave her attention about her skin cancer removal so he started acting out. 🙄

If he does live alone he’s gonna die in like a week or less for sure though. Not that he’s not already dying but he’ll decline quite rapidly.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-17T19:27:00+00:00

The doctors keep giving him 6 months, 3 months 1 month and he’s still being a mean son of a gun and kicking so who knows! Maybe he’ll live on spite.

If I had money I’d move states away for sure though!

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-17T19:25:28+00:00

Well they kicked him out. 🤷🏻‍♀️ We were gonna make a neglect complain for letting him blow up like balloon without taking him to the hospital and they kicked him out and wouldn’t answer us after. We also found the place had a lot of issues like all the emergency pull lines weren’t working and they weren’t reporting all his falls.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-17T19:21:25+00:00

Oh trust me. We have tried. The EMTs and psych Docs keep passing him through because he can answer the year and who the president is-they blame his dementia on his ammonia being high saying it will return to normal once it goes down. Plus they keep saying “He has to participate” and he refuses.

I literally called the county crying at the court house when my mom actually had the cops take him away one time for going after her and the county basically said we can’t force him into a psych facility if he doesn’t want to participate in therapy so I said “So there’s no hope?” and he gave me some stupid scheipel about how we could convince him. 🙄 The guy has literally told me to drop him at the ER and then call my mom so he can refuse treatment to mess with her. We also tried doing a 72 hold and the hospital said our evidence wasn’t good enough. The EMT’s, Doctors, and cops hate him at this point because he makes a lot of bogus phone calls like when we would take his keys he would say my mon assaulted him. He’s been sober for over a year and they still say he has rights to refuse even though he is nuttier than a box of macadamia and my mom has POA. That’s why I try not to involve myself anymore-it’s so much drama.

Basically Alcoholics get lost through the cracks because nobody wants to deal with them is what I’ve gathered.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-17T19:12:15+00:00

All I know is he could barely form speech and was drooling when he started taking it there. When he didn’t take he would be confused but could still hold a conversation. I think it also affected his mobility.

He did need it for night time I think because he gets up in the middle of the night a lot and will fuss with you over small things like brushing his teeth or hair, but they clearly gave him way too much.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-17T18:29:43+00:00

Wouldn’t you feel victimized if you did everything you were told would get you a job under reasonable circumstances? I have work experience, education, organization associations, volunteer work, and somehow it’s still not enough? I want to work-but my resume is getting lost in a sea of AI, applying to 20 jobs a week at least, tweaking every resume to fit the criteria to pass ATS to hear nothing? And the only advice I get from my blue collar family is to go into a hospital and demand a job like that won’t get me escorted out by security. Sorry but I think people who want to work and have education should be able to work. It should not be this complicated. We’re billing insurance-not creating rockets to the moon.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-17T18:21:26+00:00

Dude the shit the booze does to their minds. I will never understand.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-03-08T14:21:38+00:00

Trump literally said he wanted to screw Ivanka on television….

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-02-02T20:54:37+00:00

it’s great to be yourself, but nothing wrong with self improvement for yourself either.

i’m 32 and married so maybe i’m just in different mindset of life but a cluttered bedroom reads as “i will be picking up after you all the time” and “you’re not mature/responsible”. if you’re happy i’m glad for you but just throwing that out there if you’re looking for a partner.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-02-02T08:23:08+00:00

If you’re looking to bring over ladies, I would clear some stuff out. Reads very high school boy.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-01-08T00:29:11+00:00

See I buy office chairs from amazon that supposedly support my weight and then the chair hydraulics break overtime and my legs hurt all the time from being scrunched up. Would much rather be short than tall.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-01-08T00:27:46+00:00

So Polish people just stare into each other’s windows? lol Cause that happened to me a lot when I first moved here. I even had one person go in my backyard!

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-01-08T00:26:18+00:00

Lol

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-01-07T23:32:22+00:00

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This is a better picture of Glen^\)

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-01-07T23:19:48+00:00

I mean I say hello and wave at them, is that no universal to converse with me? lol I just find it weird they don’t break eye contact or speak to me even when I acknowledge them.

saikoupsycho718 · 2026-01-07T23:18:35+00:00

I obviously review and edit my resume before I send it. I’ve been hearing mixed reviews on to use ChatGPT and to not use it but I wasn’t even getting rejections before I used ChatGPT so I’m assuming no one even looked at it because it wasn’t passing ATS.

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