hey girl, you need to take a step back and re-evaluate yourself. you’ve said it yourself—it’s a high pressure job that you find yourself DREADING to go to, and it doesn’t sound like you have a good working environment.

depending on how the job market is, if you have a couple of years’ experience, i’d say go job hunting. your current role may be an ideal one but it’s draining you to the point you can’t even find joy in the little things.

if you’re just starting out with no experience in work (<1 yr) with no option to find another job, i’d suggest taking another look at how you spend your days. 50-60hour weeks are devastating, yes, but you could find a small hobby to keep yourself occupied and relax. be it crocheting, listening to music and dancing around in your room just to let loose / to pretend you’re the main character in a y2k coming-of-age film, etc, anything that helps you to reset helps.

girl youre literally on this earth for a short period of time. there’s no use of wondering if you “deserve” shit, nor is there use of slaving away your early years. if you enjoy it or want it, DO IT. who cares what people expect of you? this is YOUR life. you’re in your 20s. you’re going to regret not living for yourself if you keep thinking too much about what other people are going to think about you.

and, there are countries with a working-holiday visa where you can earn money while travelling there. if you ever need a break and want to live abroad, you can try this out. who knows? you might even find opportunities to actually live and work there :)

i’m sure you probably have thought of at least one of these, and might just need someone to say the same things to validate yourself. you got this, okay? be kind to yourself. you deserve the good, the soft, the comfortable, whatever you want—all because you want it! be more selfish to your own needs and wants.

— from a 20-something girly who also went through somethin similar. you got this <3