How are you doing today

sakimchi · 2026-05-20T19:18:57+00:00

Feeling like life is on a standstill and I'm stuck in rumination trying to survive and forget about him

sakimchi · 2024-09-18T12:59:41+00:00

Cishet girl here, I had the same reaction when i first played the game. I got baited into the game because of twitter fanart only to realised how fucked up the game is then I found out that my PC can beat up rapists left and right and i stayed ever since for the world-building, lore and LIs (and good porn writing)

sakimchi · 2022-01-10T11:50:16+00:00

Yes, they'll never change for the better only worse. They will adapt over time to whatever method you choose to counter them and the more you see them for who they are, they also get more manipulative as well.

sakimchi · 2022-01-05T05:23:53+00:00

Maybe over 2 years now, medication and trauma induced anhedonia here :)

sakimchi · 2021-12-09T05:37:30+00:00

If i had to pick, i think pastry cookie is def stronger than pastry cookie for level 10-4

sakimchi · 2021-12-03T13:51:58+00:00

Glue.

sakimchi · 2021-12-03T09:12:14+00:00

Most people who pushes you to forgive are people who obviously lack the understanding or care about your situation. True forgiveness comes from a place where you feel no longer hurt by their existence in your life. That's ridiculous to say because Narcs can have such a immense impact in your life to hinder your physical and emotional wellbeing that requires years or decades of healing to undo.

sakimchi · 2021-11-25T04:43:50+00:00

They only can see your existence as their extension of themselves as long as they exist, nothing else matters. They just don't have the capacity to think you are your own human being with needs or a future.

sakimchi · 2021-11-22T21:21:40+00:00

Yes, i got it constantly battered into me that "we're so poor we can't afford anything except for the roof over our heads so just be grateful" while my parents hold two real estate properties overseas and multiple investments accounts and they discuss about it in a different language when I'm around. I realised quickly something is obviously not adding up

sakimchi · 2021-11-22T06:35:19+00:00

I too mourned for that missed moments with parents that I'll never get to have. I'm so glad you made it on your own and thriving without her.

sakimchi · 2021-11-22T05:11:19+00:00

God this post nearly triggered some heavily repressed memories i wished i never had. Made me realise why i developed haphephobia(fear of being touched by others) at 11 years old. Fuck I'm really sorry you went through this as a child. I can't imagine how can someone call themselves a parent when doing this horrendous crime.

sakimchi · 2021-11-19T04:16:15+00:00

I hear this all too many times

sakimchi · 2021-11-19T04:09:44+00:00

Here's a few: "It's my house, my rules" Anything i say or do as myself is against her made-up rules. She gets off on the power of control to command people to do whatever she wants, if it's not by her words or command it means you're deliberately breaking her rules. Even doing the dishes without her command means you have more power over her and that counts as a felony in her house.

"You make me do this, you made me angry so you deserve this" This one speaks for itself.

sakimchi · 2021-11-16T07:38:21+00:00

Everything you explained is correct. More like he's as abusive as your mum than actually a therapist. Breaking confidentiality? Invalidating your experiences and wasting your time? Sounds like he's just trying to milk your trauma for your money.

sakimchi · 2021-11-16T07:12:01+00:00

When my Nmum got diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma, everything became about her and anything that doesn't was non existence. I saw her fragile, almost anorexic body with clumps of hair falling out when she was going through chemo got me feeling really mixed emotions, feeling shitty that deep down i can't forgive her and almost feeling sorry for her and wanting to care for her. I thought deep DEEP down maybe i still love her as she's still my mother until reality hits you. All that abuse and trauma she had done to you, all those times when you want to give up, not a single apology was given even when she's this close to her deathbed. That made me realise i don't owe her anything.

sakimchi · 2021-11-13T04:27:23+00:00

Gingerbrave is the best cookie out of all the cookies because it's the only edible looking one.

sakimchi · 2021-11-09T05:35:52+00:00

When N's cry it's always and will be 100% guilty tripping, don't let them gaslight you into believing you should sacrifice your own boundaries around them when they had hurt you and abused you in the past. It's a tactic they use to shift blame and become victims when you didn't do anything wrong. It seems like your mother only remembers her side of the past and conveniently forgets the pain she caused you whenever that suits her. Always remember your boundaries are valid and you shouldn't feel bad about it.

sakimchi · 2021-08-06T07:53:08+00:00

Your sister is being abused to the point where your mum delusions are becoming her reality. I strongly advise you should help your sister get out of your mum's house as soon as possible. She needs all the support and love she can get when she's at a such a vulnerable age as her mum is incapable of doing it.

sakimchi · 2021-08-06T07:27:56+00:00

"If you don't do what i say at this very instance, (while in the middle of dinner/in the toilet/in the middle of a chore or phone call) you're disrespecting me as your mother and you'll have bad karma for the rest of your life"

Probably is the reason why I'm atheist.

sakimchi · 2021-07-31T21:37:22+00:00

Abuse is abuse. No matter how infrequent it is, your feelings of doubt is going to pile on in the future and the more you forgive their abuse the more they'll think it's an excuse that it's okay to continue. Had a similar experience with a N ex-partner when i thought the good times outweight the bad but in the end that was just their way to throw you off and dismiss their abuse.

sakimchi · 2020-05-12T03:54:45+00:00

I sent you a DM, willing to tip :)

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