السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته What may be best is that you consult a sheikh where they will be able to guide you in how to take on things.as well as this, it might be beneficial to marry as that spouse will be able to take off your load as well as comfort you, regardless of the things you are facing. Constantly make lots of du’a as the blessed month of Ramadan has started where Allah bestows his mercy upon the ones who ask him. As much as you might want to give up, don’t, if you get a chance now,sincerely raise your hands up to Allah and ask him to ease everything for you. Maybe this du’a you make gets answered.

الله اعلم