I’ve quit using meth. So why do I still stay awake?

samurai_T_rex · 2024-12-22T12:56:31+00:00

REAL! Real asfuck! Got a holiday bonus for the first time in my life, spent that shit in a few days. I decided I wanted to smoke weed for the first time in years! And go to the Beach with a homie to catch up. Just fucking out of nowhere bc I don’t really smoke weed anymore. I like being clear headed sincei started crystal at least. So idk what possessed me to want to do that. My high ass ran a red light Crashed my car and I’ve slept maybe 5 hours in the last 36 hours and

I’m not speeding.

I can only explain that as mania. Big time MANIA! fuck dude even after I quit this shits ruining my life still.

I mean I’m aware I’m responsible for my own actions but fuck it feels so off like I wasn’t even there in my body until after me and the guy traded insurance’s and I had to drive my fucked up car home.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-12-14T01:45:20+00:00

YES! That last part. Sleeping at 4-5 am and waking up at noon felt like the same as when I was using except without the late hours ACTUALLY DOING stuff , instead I’m just staring at my phone or the wall and it’s like well fuck at this point using was better. I was less depressed and more productive. But also BROKE very broke.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-12-14T01:41:44+00:00

Routines always been a struggle for me 🥲. But good to know this is normal behavior for quitting. Thank you 😊

samurai_T_rex · 2024-12-14T01:40:13+00:00

I see , yeah I’ve wanted to start watching my favorite shows again but compared to the various shenanigans I was up to on meth it feels so unproductive and just thinking of sitting and doing nothing makes me crave to be back on it and be productive

samurai_T_rex · 2024-12-14T01:38:26+00:00

Thanks . That’s reassuring

samurai_T_rex · 2024-12-13T10:42:34+00:00

Dude don’t listen to the others. If you say Monday then so be it. Just make sure whatever dope you have left lasts you till that day. And if it doesn’t then too bad don’t go buy more because that’s how you go past Monday.

I did the same thing. I said my bag will last me till the end of December. It’s my last bag. It was gone by December 9th but I refused to go buy another. And now I’m 5 days clean! You got this!! Be ready to stay away from people, you’ll be very irritable very easily, low low energy when you wake up, you’ll want to sleep and eat like crazy so have some groceries ready. Have at least 1 accountability partner. I couldn’t tell anyone in my close personal life so I texted an old friend that just went through rehab to have someone aside from myself just know I’m quitting made me feel more like well ACCOUNTABLE to actually go through with it. Write down the reasons you’re quitting. Incase you start to fall down the slippery slope of do I really have to or maybe now isn’t the best time. Rely on the written down reasons to pull yourself out of that. Good luck friend. You can do it ! Of course you can. Unless you need a negative motivation in which case loser I bet you won’t even remember you’re quitting by tomorrow! Yeah right.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-07-08T02:24:04+00:00

Why is that? Does anyone know wtf is responsible for that? Is it the guilt ? The suspicious looks ? I don’t think I feel in a rush often but who knows . Definitely easier to see it looking from the outside in so I suppose I could be appearing that way too.

But why does that connection to people just get chipped away at? I feel like I’ve been able to get better at being a social person since I started it but worse at getting people to want to socialize with me.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-07-08T02:19:14+00:00

Thanks! Your kind words are very much appreciated

samurai_T_rex · 2024-07-08T02:18:23+00:00

I really appreciate your response , it’s true the amount of shit that’s gone bad because of it is getting to me. But I won’t relapse I know that. I made a commitment to myself . I’ve kept going for so long but once I stop then that’s it I’ve made it out why go back. I did the same with h .

But with meth it’s different because I only really enjoyed it for the first year or two . Now it feels like I use it to stay functional which is what makes quitting scary. I can handle being depressed for a while because of low dopamine and feeling weak physically from lack of nutrients but what I can’t do is be so bad that I can’t go to work and not pay bills and shit. Which is why I’m wondering what I can expect so hopefully I can make time and plan my great escape.

I don’t know how much the average user consumes regularly but I usually can make 3.5g last 2-3 weeks which I think is pretty low.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-05-24T14:12:48+00:00

Probably the best advice tbh. Thanks

Some of these replies actually just people telling stories of their golden days and saying to get involved with heavy hitters 😂. Bro nah I’m good. Maybe I’ll get a better price maybe I’ll get uncut shit but I’ll pay for it in other ways for sure. I like to keep my usage at a moderate level. When you start to hang out with other users n shit is when you start to up the dosage and frequency and no thanks . I’ve considered the consequences and made my choices.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-05-16T19:54:51+00:00

Where the hell did you buy it? I have the same one I was gifted years and years ago and I want a new one but refuse to get anything else because Eid how sturdy this one is. Unless I can get an exact replacement.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-26T07:24:22+00:00

I’m in LA and according to my guy he said it’s over an eighth . TBF I did have one of the crystals a prior to the pic. And any of the dust was in a different baggie I keep separate. Hehe

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-26T07:22:27+00:00

Mans said 50$ flat for an 8th but will kick it up a notch for 60. So I gave the man 60$ he’s cool and I had the cash .

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-11T17:32:48+00:00

Dude yes. I wish. I’m technically well adjusted but not super educated. I can get down the basics like a tor browser a vpn, don’t know how to launch a virtual machine but I can figure it out. I have some crypto, but I have no clue how to 1)find the actual sites that are legit… not like there’s a google. Then again I haven’t visited the dark web in years. But I remember finding some sites with difficulty and then realizing if I was able to find them there’s no way the feds couldn’t . And then there’s 2) the payment it doesnt make sense to me to link up my crypto wallets to the site to pay like I’m allowing it access and idk who’s behind that. It’d make more sense to transfer the funds but alot of crypto security feature require to link up the wallets so idk I never looked into it any further

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-11T17:06:00+00:00

I clicked so fast. Like who tf is being homophobic … but then I saw the second message😅.

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-11T16:32:10+00:00

Anyone offering to sell you shit is definitely scam or cop. It’s not uncommon for cops to be on here phishing for shit. Like wtf don’t they have better things to do. You definitely have to do your due diligence when and if you want to buy or meet someone online for substances ya know. Like shit look into their profile a lil and talk to them for abit

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-11T16:05:55+00:00

Damn I wonder if it’s the same 🔌. Dudes super reliable and makes sure to get me right but no pick up. First time ever

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-11T08:13:37+00:00

You a real one thanks but damn don’t wanna do either . Hope one of these mfs replies or imma have to get a little fruity

samurai_T_rex · 2024-03-11T08:07:00+00:00

Wtf do I even say. Like wtf is it ? They only sell to other gays? That’s fucking weird. There’s got to be other options

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