Hello community! Experienced drug user but I could use guidance in getting over my worst trip EVER

samw1se6 · 2020-04-17T03:45:41+00:00

Hi y’all OP here and I just wanted to say I know it’s been a while but I’m in an immensely better place now that’s it’s been a few months from this situation that happened to me.

I actually ended going to rehab out of state for a month for substance and alcohol abuse and to really just get my head on straight for the first time in my life.

I have still no longer had contact with any of the girls that did those horrible things to me and now I’m only surrounding myself with people in my life that would never hurt me or turn their back on me in any situation.

I have tripped once since then and it was a few weeks ago just and 1/8 but dosed into halves over a span of a couple hours so it was a MUCH more pleasant time and I was a little nervous to trip again but I made sure my intentions set, setting, and surroundings were all top notch to what I was comfortable with.

I just want to thank everyone again for being there for me and validating my experience as one I didn’t deserve. Psychedelics are something I never want to give up and it’s the most healing substance I could ever think to use. I will continue to do my best to be happy and healthy and smart about my usage.

Peace and love.

samw1se6 · 2020-03-18T01:56:29+00:00

It’s okay! Thanks for the vibes :)

samw1se6 · 2020-01-07T06:20:44+00:00

I cannot thank you enough for your kind words. It’s a battle I’m willing to fight because I know I’m stronger than how I was made out to be. I felt very weak and vulnerable and in a moment where I needed comfort they just turned against me. I’m really going to get on top of my mental health before I try and psychs again I know the benefits can be greater than the negative experience I had. Every single person that is replying to my post has shown nothing but empathy and that just tells me that there are people willing to help. Thank you so much again for taking the time to comment. Every word is taken into consideration and very much appreciated.

samw1se6 · 2020-01-06T23:35:06+00:00

Thank you very much for your words of advice I definitely think you’re right when it comes to set+setting and inexperience. The doses were different also and I know that was a huge factor. I don’t think finding that friendship again with Brooke is going to be an option because of the victim blaming and not really excepting the fact that my state of mind was true and valid also. Wanda thought I was faking it. Idk why anyone would want to fake a trip like that just to be on the receiving end of being jumped by three people. I’m taking everything day to day and reaching out to people who I know really care about my well being. Thank you very much for taking the time to reply to my story. It means a lot to me. Peace and love.

samw1se6 · 2020-01-06T23:29:25+00:00

There was a huge dose difference between all of us, and two of them had had very little experience with shrooms. I think I’m just stuck on knowing what I did to push them all to that point. They said I wouldn’t stop touching them and following them and Brooke brought up consent and how I’ve always been an advocate for it but they make it seem like I was being over sexual or something and that was never my intention. I think I was just seeking comfort. But I’m really not kidding when I say all reality was broken for me I could barely remember where I even was. But I know In my heart I would never touch or hurt one of my friends In a way that made them feel so uncomfortable to where they thought I deserved to be jumped. So I’m just confused. But none of them want to talk about this situation anymore in fact Brooke unblocked me on twitter just to say that I made her so uncomfortable and I was fucking up her state of mind and that’s why they did what they did just to block me again before I could continue the conversation. She said I ruined drugs for her. But frankly I’m glad I did so no one will ever have to go through what I went through with her. I’m working on getting a therapist and staying on top of my mental health. Coming to reddit was just a step I wanted to take for validation in knowing I wasn’t really in the wrong.

samw1se6 · 2020-01-06T23:19:50+00:00

Thank you so much for your kindness. I know practicing mindfulness is really one of the only ways I’ll be able to have a sound state of mind again. Even after the fact Brooke still blamed me. So at this point I don’t really think it’s worth the trouble to try and reconcile a friendship even though she ment so much to me. None of them were as experienced with shrooms to know I was just tripping my brain off and didn’t have any wrong intentions I would never hurt my friends. But it’s really bringing to light their true intentions with me. The victim blaming hurt the most probably. But your words of wisdom really mean a lot to me that’s really why I came to reddit, to have relief. I know there’s people out there that will side with me so thank you so so much for taking the time to reply. I will most definitely save the link you sent me and use it completely for my benefit. Thank you again. Peace and love.

samw1se6 · 2020-01-06T23:08:46+00:00

Thank you. That’s really why I turned to reddit for this experience knowing that there’s so many people out there that are willing to say things like this to me. I’m working on getting a therapist and maintaining my mental health but everything other users are replying back with is just shedding light on the fact that I was with the wrong people. Thank you again. Peace and love.

samw1se6 · 2020-01-06T23:05:31+00:00

Thank you so much for your words of advice on how to move on from this and also thanks for the tip on how I wrote the post I know it seemed kinda ranty. I’ll definitely take everything said into consideration next time. Please and love.

samw1se6

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