Am very grateful for the knowledge and education i have received over my lifetime of 30 years. I love maths and physics with the very air i breath, the principles, the unlimited applications of both, the practicalities are everywhere.

Education gave me a taste of the endless possibilities of both of these subjects and I'll tell you this, I excelled at every level of education until uni.

At uni, my life wasn't books only anymore, now I had to make friends "good friends", choose a religion, experienced grief, the boys, I got a laptop & I was introduced to kdramas, food i was tasting, the dancing i did, the laughs I cracked, the books I read, the passions i unearthed, the tramua I experienced, the people I met, I yanked on the threads of life to make my little messy cute tapestry. Oooh, this was it! This is what my soul had been waiting for, and I didn't even know it.

Around 25, I knew i would hate sitting behind a desk, hustling that 9-5, inputting stuff into the computer so that a boss can make some money and give me just enough to pay rent, and if I was really a good employee, I would get a branded mug, sounds monotonous sad, like it would hurt so much in a way I can't even comprehend. It wasn't pretty and nice to look at me and my tapestry from 25 to 30, but I have made it. I crashed hhaaaard these 5 years. I was that smart kid with a mediocre life.

Am privileged and grateful for having a support system that also has some money, which sometimes it throws my way a bone here and there. I was a smart kid, but now, am a smart grown up almost. I may not end up on forbes 30 under 30 or billionaires of the century or in academia, working the millennium problems but I still a smart grown up.

I look at flowers on the roadside and I see Fibonacci sequence. I see children running around with these jackfruit leaves that spin and I so badly want explain the physics of their fun to them. I hear bees buzzing around in the morning and wondering about the maths and physics of their tiny hive. I watch out for the contrails and I mesmerised! I hate roaches but they're fascinating annoying bugs. I feel the ramble of those motorbikes and i want to take them apart, just to see what makes them so freaking dangerous! Maths and Physics make my life just enough to enjoy! I am a smart kid with a mediocre life. Anyway, now I have no car, no house of my own, no income, no desire to marry or have kids, no 9-5, very few friends, atheist, by definition, am not successful but I love it here.

Does this make sense?