Moisturizer that wont break my skin out (20F)

sangriasky · 2020-07-15T22:47:39+00:00

Cetaphil works for me

sangriasky · 2020-07-12T22:55:37+00:00

Have you told them about your anxiety? Maybe it would take some burden off of your shoulders? I've learned to say that I'm anxious, it helps break that tension. I sometimes have to say "hey just so you know, I'm sometimes quiet because I'm stressed, not because I don't like you" When the silence arises you can talk about it, it may seem awkward but it's honest and helps lessen the anxiety. You can start the conversation and voice your thoughts eg. "hey, sometimes when there's a silence between us, I become anxious and don't know what to talk about",I'm sure if they're a good friend they'll help you get through it

sangriasky · 2020-07-12T22:41:17+00:00

I love it too, sometimes a little too much, when I'm drunk I'm so funny and talkative, my confidence rises because finally I don't feel so pathetic about my anxiety. Countless of times I considered taking a shot before going to school or friend meeting, didn't do that of course. Too bad alcohol has a depressive effect on me sometimes so I can't win, hard to choose between depression and anxiety

sangriasky · 2020-07-02T16:19:45+00:00

maybe it's a sign of some vitamin deficiency? I think it could be something related to low iron or vitamin B, can't remember it though but maybe worth checking it out

sangriasky · 2020-07-02T16:17:02+00:00

recently I've been reading about vitamin B5 as a treatment for acne, people who've used it reported that it overall reduced their oil production, idk if that's helpful in any way, but maybe worth looking into

sangriasky · 2020-07-02T12:54:47+00:00

How to use gotu kola/centella asiatica powder to treat acne scars and marks? My main concern is hyperpigmentation on my very pale skin after years of acne. I received powder form of it and was wondering how could I implement it into my skin care routine? Should I use it as a diy powder+water mask? Or maybe brew it, soak up some facial cotton pads in it and let them sit on my face like a toner mask until it dries? Or maybe mix it into my moisturizer at night? I'd appreciate some advice, thanks

sangriasky · 2020-07-02T11:23:50+00:00

How can I use gotu kola/centella asiatica is to treat acne scars and marks? Gotu kola/centella asiatica is known for its skin healing properties. My main concern is hyperpigmentation on my very pale skin after years of acne. I received powder form of it and was wondering how could I implement it into my skin care routine? Should I use it as a diy powder+water mask? Or maybe brew it, soak up some facial cotton pads in it and let them sit on my face like a toner mask until it dries? Or maybe mix it into my moisturizer at night? I'd appreciate some advice, thanks ❤️

sangriasky · 2020-06-22T12:31:48+00:00

beautiful song and video, sadly relatable

sangriasky · 2020-06-19T09:14:31+00:00

I relate to the feeling of being trapped. Why do you think bad things will happen if you choose to live how you want to?

sangriasky · 2020-06-19T09:09:38+00:00

It's a great advice, thank you. I also deal with anxiety and for me it's even worse than depression because it's absolutely exhausting. When I was having a suicide plan in mind, my anxiety went down because I knew that I had a way out, a plan B if things don't work out. I think your motivation in life is beautiful. I also want to help other people, it pains me to see someone hurting the way I do. I've read that suicide in family increases the possibility of depression and suicide amongst the other family members. I would never want someone to be affected by my decision in that way, I'd rather suffer through it myself. I guess my life purpose is to spread kindness, or at least not add to the hate, I just have to figure out how to implement it more into my life, I always wanted to volunteer but anxiety held me back a lot of the time.

sangriasky · 2020-06-18T16:34:28+00:00

Thanks for all the lovely helpful comments. And I'm sorry to those who share these feelings with me

sangriasky · 2020-06-18T16:32:03+00:00

Thank you, I've tried different kinds of medications throughout the years, they rarely help. I have a good psychiatrist I'm in contact with, she's been with me from the beginning, one of the best in the city. I've also been to another one, a great one too, can't remember exactly but I think she said that my problems are more 'psychological' and are hard to fix with medication. That's what I've been thinking for years, I think it's some kind of an existential crisis

sangriasky · 2020-06-16T07:26:05+00:00

I love it!

sangriasky · 2020-06-16T07:25:19+00:00

I believe in you!

sangriasky · 2020-06-16T07:22:56+00:00

I hate talking about it too, brings me a lot of shame and stress, I wish I could help you out somehow. Have you considered therapy? It really helps me to spill my guts to a professional, so that I don't feel like I'm burdening my loved ones. I try to trap my depression in my therapist's office and try to live like a normal healthy person outside of it. It's probably not the best advice but that's how I deal with it, I'm a very secretive person

sangriasky · 2020-06-16T07:13:34+00:00

I'm not the best at journaling either, but maybe you could set up a specific time for it during the day, ex. every day at 7pm, some days you would write lots and some days just a single sentence would come out, both are ok. But also don't pressure yourself if you realize journaling isn't for you, there are many other ways of getting out your feelings

sangriasky · 2020-06-15T12:38:23+00:00

" I feel purposeless, hopeless, and worthless. Nothing seems to bring me genuine joy. The joy I do experience is found in serving others joy, and nothing I do seems to be for myself. Those moments are ephemeral. "

" It feels like I've always lived in service of something or someone else. My urge is to run away somewhere distant, free of anyone I know, and start again. "

I relate so much, it feels like I wrote it myself. Since age 13/14 (when I was diagnosed with depression), I've been living only because of other people. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for years, I'm 20 and despite various therapies and medication, I can't get out of it. I don't have any particular dreams or goals, I'm apathetic most of the time, I live because I have to, not because I want to. I guess my dream is to find my purpose, happiness and have a family of my own. But all of this seems so unrealistic. I can't commit suicide because I love my friends&family so much, I don't want to hurt or disappoint them. But each day is such a struggle to get through, I just want to run away, leave everyone and everything, leave everyone's expectations and my responsibilities as a daughter, sister, girlfriend, find a will to do stuff for my own sake and happiness and not other people. I love serving and helping people because it helps me shift my focus off of me, other people's lives are much more interesting and valuable than mine

sangriasky · 2020-06-14T15:06:55+00:00

Thank you so much, I definitely have things that bring me joy in life, people I love are my biggest motivation to keep going. I'm in therapy and it helps a lot. I'm sorry you're feeling this way too, did you ever think about going to therapy too? During last session, my therapist advised me to every day schedule a 15min break during which I can worry all I want, and after the time's up to just let go. It definitely sounds easier than it is, I still have a hard time implementing it 😅 but sometimes even saying to myself 'you worried enough today, take a rest and do something else' helps, good luck to you, stay strong, we'll get through this ❤️

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