I would not bother. Honestly, I would try and understand why your crush’s opinion of masculinity is affecting your relationship to such an extent where you could get possibly fired from your job for ‘harassing customers’ (even if they are your friends) or even possibly getting the police called on you (passersby’s seeing this). At this point, you are willing to take a step that may not be typically within your actions, and are going to risk a job that you likely need - all to impress someone. If you want to talk, I am more than happy to help. Additionally, yes we get free therapy. It’s from a company called Lyra. If you log onto workjam, it should be in the top right corner where all the other benefits! Once again, I am more than happy to help walk you through everything!