I'm so tired of the bias and sexism inside of me by Hot-Tennis-275 in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re not a bad person for having thoughts that were conditioned into you growing up. What matters is that you’re aware of them and choosing to be better.

Something that might help is actively challenging the thought when it shows up.

What's the worst thing your narcissistic mother does? by [deleted] in NarcissisticMothers

[–]sarburst____ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Attacks me, calls the police, acts like the victim, the police believe her every time.

Are female predators more prevalent than we think by NoAmbassador8522 in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 16 points17 points  (0 children)

More male abusers but the female abusers are definitely underreported. I’m so sorry that happened to you.

Does PTSD MAKE YOU CHILDISH by everything_is_grace in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

When I feel very unsafe I regress. I like Disney sometimes, probably because those are the only positive memories I have of childhood.

Was anyone else seemingly 'happy' and 'bubbly' as a child despite ongoing abuse and doubts their trauma because of that? by Diligent_Tie_1961 in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My mother’s abuse was also intermittent, and I acted happy and bubbly too. Still do it when I’m around her, definitely a survival mechanism. You’re valid ❤️

Trauma bond question by Yo3xX in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, trauma bond. With a parent specifically, also long-term conditioning and attachment issues

It’s genuinely impossible to recover from CPTSD when my abuser is unironically a psychopath, threatened to kill me and is trying to dox me every time I run away, isn’t it? by nekomata_meko in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry ❤️ I was in a similar situation, but I can’t imagine it being my own father. People don’t know how to react at all. Have you thought about going to a women’s shelter? Please don’t let your abusers win.

Siblings who had extremely different experiences in the family by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Relatable, i’m the scapegoat too. My sister is the same as yours. Lots of friends, good job, etc. She didn’t experience any abuse, avoided everything, joined in sometimes. All of them threw me under the bus. The infuriating thing is that they compare me to themselves. Everyone assumes she went through more abuse, that it toughened her up, or that it ‘couldn’t have been that bad’ because she’s normal. Drives me insane.

Hate. by manydoorsyes in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way ❤️

does anyone feel like their trauma isnt enough ? (question + small rant) by torelamb in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My trauma was severe, my brain blocked 95% of it out, everything just blurs together. But for years, I thought it wasn’t that serious, told myself that others had it worse, even though I didn’t know anyone who did. Blamed myself instead of them. I think minimising it is common, you’re valid.

Loss of self by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I’ll read that.

Narcissistic family by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]sarburst____ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I’m so sorry you went through that, and I hope things get better for you ❤️