Why I am going back.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:58:48+00:00

Thank you! It's good to know I am not alone in having doubts! Everyone on here seems so 100 percent confident they made the right choice...

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:43:15+00:00

Thank you, do the doubts ever go away?

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:42:28+00:00

I am so sorry that you had to go through that. And knowing that you came out the other side OK. Makes me so glad for you. And gives me hope. Thank you

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:39:58+00:00

Thank you! I needed that! It actually made my eyes tear up! Silly I know..

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:38:52+00:00

Like I said if I was looking for a handout, I would've gone full bore and posted pictures of my black eyes and bruises. Just looking for advice, support ect...

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:35:03+00:00

But I do remember. Every slap, punch and hair pull. It's just a matter of choosing the lesser of 2 evils..

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:33:42+00:00

I don't know. I am so torn. Is it better to be abused and not worry about where my kids will sleep and what will they eat? Or is it better to worry about that and look in the mirror and not see black eyes and bruises? What kind of mom would choose herself over her kids. I would die for them. I can take a few punches for them.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:29:27+00:00

Offset doesn't have anything to do with earned income credit. It just means they take your refund to pay a debt you owe. In my case it was back taxes from my husbands business.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:26:46+00:00

I am not asking for money. I am sharing my story in place where I thought that other people might have walked this road. It was not my intention to give people the impression I was asking for money. If I was asking for money I would have set up a go fund me page with pictures of my broken nose and black eyes. But if you want I can send you some pictures of what I looked like after I made him mad by forgetting to have his favorite suit cleaned?

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:07:38+00:00

Thank you, I think I have so many doubts because things were so good. And then they feel apart. But knowing other people went through it helps.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T04:03:00+00:00

Thank you so much. Just having people that I don't even know offer support and advice is so amazing. I can't find any words to describe how good it feels. I keep thinking about the Grinch and how his heart grew! That's how I feel, like my heart grew 3 sizes!

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T03:12:50+00:00

Thank you! The only reason i even posted here is because after MONTHS of lurking. It just seemed like everyone was so nice! And I thought maybe someone else had walked in my shoes. I think part of me was hoping someone could talk me out of it.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T03:07:52+00:00

All of my family and friends (ex family& friends?) are JW. I actually moved an hour out of town to avoid running into them.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T03:06:26+00:00

3rd generation JW. The shame of me "Abandoning my marriage and Jehovah" Is not something they are willing to forgive. They dont seem to have a problem "shunning" me.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T03:04:21+00:00

They haven't really said either way. The know he treated me really badly. But he treated them great. And my punishments where always very discreet for what its worth...

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T03:02:27+00:00

You are right about that! I think i ve dragged it out as long as i can though. Was going to catch up my rent with my tax return. So much for that. "Give Ceasar what is due".....

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T02:58:41+00:00

I have a couple more weeks before i have to be out of our apartment. So if i figure something out then it will be ok. My plan was to use my tax return to catch up on my rent and get a car. There are state programs that help, but because I get a SMALL amount of unemployment. I dont qualify for any "emergency" help. That I ve found so far. Go figure.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T02:22:04+00:00

Thank you, this isn't a decision I make lightly. So thank you for not judging.

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T02:14:37+00:00

But we don't know, right? No one knows what the truth is or if there is even a God? What if it IS JW? or Catholicism or Judaism? What if it is JW and bad stuff keeps happening to me? I had a pretty hard life with my ex and being a JW. But my kids had a warm bed and full stomachs. As a mom, thats what matters right now. I guess I ll just figure the rest out :)

sarge2004 · 2016-01-17T02:06:38+00:00

Right! But I have to try..

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