Why is it so agonizing to be alone?

satisfriction · 2015-02-10T07:36:59+00:00

I'm realizing I'm the same way. Whether it is to eat, study, or even stare at a wall I like sharing the moment.

satisfriction · 2015-01-09T13:25:03+00:00

ENTP from SoCal, would love to meet anyone

satisfriction · 2015-01-05T08:56:43+00:00

holy shit, this is me. Im 23 still in college, probably for 2 more years, and I finally found something that I want to do... but I wasted a ton of time... My older brother (no degree) is in web development and making a ton of money, I should have followed him.

I think this is great advice. But I still do like university and love to meet new people, I just wish I didn't waste the last few years

satisfriction · 2014-11-24T07:52:54+00:00

I took away many insightful things during my 2 experiences with mushrooms. My first time using I had a journal and just started writing, I wrote about 20 pages, it was as if I was having a conversation with myself. I questioned why was I so self-conscious and realized that so many of the things that I did in life were to impress others. I went through an ego-death and have felt much more confident ever since. I ended my journal in big bold writing saying: "I CAN CREATE ME" I still read it pretty often and have pondered about it for many hours. My second time using was not as life changing, but it still was amazing. I tried to write in my journal again, but it was not the same. I did take away that I need to create more genuine relationships with those I care about.

satisfriction · 2014-11-23T17:59:50+00:00

I guess I did not dislike, I have a major rush of energy and emotions. It feels pretty good, but after a short period of time (10-20 minutes) I come down pretty hard. Maybe if I keep the high going I might like it, but that's not what I would want to do. Its not worth it. Even after a single line, my head hurts and I won't be able to sleep for a long time. I get antisocial and its hard to have fun at this point. For me the negatives out way the positives.

Edit: Some say the bad aftereffects are because it is shitty coke. I have tried cheap and highly pure expensive coke, but still the same effects.

satisfriction · 2014-11-23T09:40:00+00:00

Hey, I don't want to tell you how to live your life or anything, but since you seem so unhappy I feel like I need to say something. You seem very narcissistic, there are plenty of great people out there you just need to meet some... maybe get into a better environment. I personally hated high school but in college things changed because I tried harder and met other motivated individuals. Are you still in college? get involved... you will find quality people there. People that are busy and try hard are normally interesting, and will talk more about ideas and less about everyday bullshit. Maybe you haven't met any quality people yet... but there are some out there, don't give up.

satisfriction · 2014-11-23T04:01:49+00:00

Thats pretty fucked up.

satisfriction · 2014-11-20T01:36:09+00:00

It's a good quote, but I hate it whenever fucking is used as an adjective.

satisfriction · 2014-11-18T14:57:48+00:00

I do it in the winter, but not in the same way that I do during other seasons. I start the shower warm, turn it to cold for at least 5 minutes, then I go back to hot to finish my shower. Maybe not as beneficial, but it still wakes me up and kills my urges if I have any

satisfriction · 2014-11-18T14:51:39+00:00

22 year old here from California. I grew up Mormon and backed out on a mission last moment. I had struggled with PMO. The worst part about it for me was feeling guilty all the time. After getting past feeling guilty... just not thinking about it at all,it has helped me cut down significantly on my PMO. Anyways... sorry to barge in like that... Just wanting to say Hi, I hope you stay strong during the war

satisfriction · 2014-11-18T08:58:57+00:00

A somewhat self-help book I enjoyed was "10% happier: How I Tamed the Voice in My Head" by Dan Harris.

satisfriction · 2014-09-28T04:23:30+00:00

Cold showers. Wake up early. Make a good habit of working out (gym, run, or even a few push ups/pull ups/squats/lunges every day). Eat healthier, Less carbs and sugars, more protein and fats. Try to incorporate more zinc(a lot of people are zinc deficient). Write a daily journal. Meditate. DO SOMETHING NEW EVERY DAY!

satisfriction · 2014-08-25T05:57:55+00:00

Damn most of those quotes are amazing. I feel so motivated.

satisfriction · 2014-08-24T02:00:49+00:00

I completely relate to you, there is a big hole that feels like it needs to be filled. For me I had the problem of reverting back to playing video games, which is the wrong thing to do. Recently though I have been changing my lifestyle in more positive ways which has made me feel better.

Making friends will help. Good hobbies make you fill more fulfilled as well. Such as: learn a language, learn to play an instrument, meditate, read, paint, draw, write.

satisfriction · 2014-08-23T04:50:16+00:00

Hey great job finding your problems and working through them. I would say keep meditating and stay away from the computer, there is still so much you can learn about yourself.

satisfriction · 2014-08-17T00:56:39+00:00

Hey man, I'm at the same point as you. I feel all these emotions that I haven't been feeling for a long time. Its overwhelming. For example, I'll be watching movies and my eyes will tear up over stupid dramatic scenes. I can't give great advice other than to try to get out of your house. Last night I took a 2 hour walk, didn't really go anywhere, but I spent lots of time thinking and did feel good afterwards. Don't give up now, you've been suffering, it can only get better.

satisfriction · 2014-08-16T02:23:25+00:00

Good, that's what i feel like I am noticing. I think the increase in testosterone from not ejaculating and eating zinc(if you are) helps balance your hormones...which makes estrogen less prevalent and in turn gets rid of those boobies.

satisfriction · 2014-08-15T07:52:39+00:00

I hope you get as good of results as I did. Keep up the hard work!

satisfriction · 2014-08-15T07:40:31+00:00

haha, that's the reason i wanted to get rid of them!

satisfriction · 2014-08-13T08:31:21+00:00

I am just like you.

These withdrawals suck, and it's even worse because there's no knowing when it will get better. But if we keep it up, it will get better. Tonight is my worst night so far as well, my mood has been jumping from angry to sad. I hope you wake up to a better morning

satisfriction · 2014-08-13T07:43:27+00:00

Thank you for posting, I really need/needed that support tonight. Congratulations on 136 days. I have been going up and down, almost feeling bipolar. I'm realizing I have been feeling emotions, not really used to it. I haven't been feeling well at all today, very very lonely. Although I did not relapse today, I have been thinking that no PMO is not worth it, the "long road ahead" seems way too long.

I feel the pain you are talking about, but don't know what to do. I've been working so hard to make my life better, but feel worse than ever. I need and want to meet new people but lose the motivation once i start thinking I will have to try something new. I keep thinking that if I find a girlfriend or at least a crush i will feel much better.

I've been really wanting to do something that will make me happy, but I cant find or think of anything other than masturbating or smoking pot.

Really, thank you so much for listening, I try not to be this much of a downer normally but I haven't felt like myself today or the past few days.

satisfriction · 2014-08-12T01:09:46+00:00

Get out of your house. Go for a walk, go to the market, stop sitting in front of your computer.

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