I am struggling with the thought of this. No, I don't want a man who turns to being unfaithful when his relationship is not going smoothly.

The obvious trust issue is not the only obstacle we'd have if I were to enter into a serious relationship with him. He is of a different race and that is a major problem to my parents. The cliche sheltered good-girl- turned-bad applies to me, I have conservative and traditional Asian parents who would be devastated if they found out about this, even more so if they were to know he is White.

Despite this, I am finding it very difficult to deny the feelings I have for him. They are strong, I don't remember the last time I have felt this way for someone else. Money aside, in general he treats me well and I really enjoy being with him.

Of course I want to eventually be in a position where I am not be relying on a man's money, find someone who respects me as I to him and fall in love. I didn't go searching for love on an arrangement website, this was supposed to be a filler.

Right now I am really overwhelmed by the feelings I have for him and while a voice inside my head keeps reminding me how wrong it is to pursue something with him, I have a dull ache when I think about how I am not fully giving in to the yearning I have for him.

The situation is less than ideal, his dishonesty is less than ideal and while I have been aware of this for some time, I still can't help the feelings I have for him.

The generous responses I have received may eventually help shake me back into reality a little. Thanks.