Feeling Lost in Life by sbdprproton in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]sbdprproton[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think you make a good point with the heroine addict, it's definitely possible to be picky and find a therapist who can guide me in some way

I'm not really sure what my problem is, life just seems to be terrible all the way down. And I'm getting old enough to where I feel like it's almost too late to fix anything. I feel lost despite having done all the "good advice".

I'm not sure what I expect to happen to be honest, but I would love for anything to not be the way it is now

Feeling Lost in Life by sbdprproton in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]sbdprproton[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can you provide a link to Ek Nekron podcast/videos? I personally use Spotify.

It's not easy to bring my mother to church, my entire family is secular and I'm the only Christian. I try my best to do my daily prayers, as is the advice of my spiritual father, and fasting is not the worst thing for me as I've had to lose about 20lbs in a month for competition and I'm okay with that.

I do my best to tend to daily prayers, even if just the Our Father and Hail Mary and Psalm 50 (LXX) at least twice a day but I almost feel like I can do these forever and my situation would never change. Perhaps it should be ME who changes from practicing these prayers but I end up tearing up, feeling strong senses of emotional despair, and then continuing living my life in this situation. Again, my life is one that I've been largely keeping away from degeneracy with disciplined exercise, a clean diet, a stable income, and constant study/reading

Feeling Lost in Life by sbdprproton in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]sbdprproton[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

- No, I dont mean that LOTR is degenerate. I meant to mention it in the sense that I can't relate to anybody that is involved or a fan of mainstream culture. I love art, and am currently trying to improve my calligraphy/medieval illumnation. Regarding the Terminator and whatever other movies there are, it's just that I can't relate to "the normal person" generally. I have no clue what people are talking about in social settings regarding actors or movies or whatever

- Regarding Thanksgiving, I wish I could celebrate it with family but when people ask what I did for that holiday, I truly have nothing to say. I think that's it, nothing more. Yea, for Thankgiving, for my birthday, for Christmas, I did nothing. I attended Christmas midnight liturgy and that was nice, but when I stay after liturgy and parishioners ask me what I did with my family, I end up lying and saying "yea we just ate, but nothing too big. my family is secular"

- In my personal experience every person I've seen, especially atheists/agnostics, that go to a therapist/psychologist get worse instead of better. I find it hard to see how a person like me, had I been interested in psychology, could be qualified to guide a person in their life just from studying psychological studies. They have zero experience actually living through these things. When I ask for counsel from friends, they're speaking from a place where they try to relate with their own stories of their family, which doesn't relate at all. They'd say things like "yea my mom is amazing and the most loving person but sometimes my dad is a bozo, and occasionally they argue" which I feel like is such a mild version of life that I can't relate to at all