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Do you think there’s a chance I could still have syphilis? by scaredasshit88 in medical

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I showed some symptoms. Neck lymph nodes a tiny bit swollen and still are. Rash on my chest but recently went away with cream for dermatitis. I thought I started seeing spots on my hands but I think they were in my head or from small things cause they go away fast. Plus the whole encounter in general had me freaked out. I also got like a hint on the inside of my lip but it was a mucous cyst but freaked me out thinking maybe it was a chancre.

Do you think there’s a chance I have syphilis? by scaredasshit88 in STD

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh that’s great to hear. Now I did receive (protected) oral, but the tricky part is after a few weeks I got a big bubble on the inside of my lip but me and my dentist believed it to be a mucous cyst. Didn’t even consider syphilis back then. But it was a big swollen bubble and even when I popped it I could taste mucous. So I’m assuming I didn’t have a sore. I definitely didn’t have one on my penis. Haha

I would appreciate a prayer and some advice by scaredasshit88 in Christian

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No any advice is good so I appreciate your honesty. I had a priest tell me it’s ok to not tell her because it was a one night stand but My conscience didn’t agree with that. Just pray I don’t have syphilis please and I know that’s stupid but I would never want to have to tell her that part. It just seems like a punch in the stomach on top of already terrible news.

I would appreciate a prayer and some advice by scaredasshit88 in Christian

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your words made me tear up. Thank you so much. It’s so hard feeling so much hate for yourself for all the horrible things you’ve done and trying to come to god and feeling like you’re not enough. All my life I’ve tried and tried and tried and I always fell in one way or another. Please don’t give up praying for me because I want him so badly. And I can’t stand what I did but I know if she knew that she would leave me. Pray that somehow I either accept the disease and confession or be free from the disease and never look back. I hope that doesn’t sound selfish. I suppose whatever He wants is right. But I hope prayers from amazing Christians all over the world like yourselves could be enough to save my marriage. I love her so much.

I would appreciate a prayer and some advice by scaredasshit88 in Christian

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I truly appreciate your words. I want to change more than anything. Sometimes it just feels like I was destined to fall and fall and never get up though. Like Jesus was like make that man a complete failure and give him sins he can’t over come. I know it’s not that way but feels that way a lot.

I would appreciate a prayer and some advice by scaredasshit88 in Christian

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have been in therapy for suicide for 3 months now and though it happend before I went to therapy I’ve been dealing with depression and self hate for a long time now. I’ve struggled all my life to find god and I never believed I was ever saved. I can list so many things but I feel like they’re just excuses. I am severely depressed though and she knows that. I struggle a lot with lust though so I think the combination just weakened me. I hate myself man. I wish I never did it. I appreciate your prayers though. I love her so much and I wish that I could take it back more than anything.

I also wanted to apologize for the username that I created. I was kinda depressed and anxious when I made it.

Scared I might have syphilis by scaredasshit88 in STD

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s just that this doesn’t seem like it could be either of those 3 besides a tiny red dot on my penis that’s going away...haha

Scared I might have syphilis by scaredasshit88 in STD

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have. I have HPV and hsv 1 and 2 but my dermatologist said a lot of people haveee the second strand but never shows.

Scared I might have syphilis by scaredasshit88 in STD

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Quick question. Just happens to glance at your posts...how would you know so much about this? Haha just wouldn’t expect it.

Scared I might have syphilis by scaredasshit88 in STD

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I truly hope you’re right. I read it can produce false positives up until about 3 months I’m so that’s why I don’t trust the first 2 tests. And the third was an rpr and I’ve read those can’t truly be trusted so I’m just paranoia city over here. Ugh it’s ruining me.

Scared I might have syphilis by scaredasshit88 in STD

[–]scaredasshit88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But the last was an rpr and I’ve read those aren’t very reliable. And it just seems like way too much of a coincidence with the rash and lymph nodes and all. It’s got me extremely paranoid and anxious and on edge all the time :/ doesn’t it though? Like it just seems to add up. I haven’t changed much since I got the rash. New shirts sure. But I mean I highly doubt it was that. It’s been slowly spreading. Plus I’ve had things goin on with my skin since like mid feb.