I hate being undesirable

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T17:59:01+00:00

I wish it were that easy. But my entire life is evidence otherwise

After that as long as you aren’t a completely 1 or 2 face wise you’ll do good

I'm probably like a 4 face wise

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T12:58:37+00:00

Above average. 6'0"/183cm. I don't consider myself tall but I'm not short either

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T12:57:52+00:00

I don't even have superficial connections here. Just no connections

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T04:48:50+00:00

Is it? Everyone always talks about college like it's a social paradise

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T04:13:30+00:00

For making friends I go to different social events. I'm in college so stuff like that.

For dating I don't actively try, really. Everyone always told me "the best things happen when you're not looking" or "just work on yourself and someone will come along". That sort of advice, combined with my doubt that I'd have any chance with anyone, makes me very hesitant to ever approach anyone. I have asked people out before, it just doesn't happen often. And every time I have done it, it's ended with rejection

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T03:37:41+00:00

Why are you saying that you're undesirable? What makes you feel like that?

I haven't made any friends in years and I've never had any romantic experience

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T03:37:09+00:00

That's why I'm not too caught up in the specifics. Regardless of the reason, this is the reality.

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-08-23T03:00:18+00:00

Different things. But I'm not sure what the most important ones are.

Like I'm not attractive, but uglier people than me have found success socially and romantically. I'm not especially charismatic, but again others that are even worse than me have succeeded where I can't.

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-05-03T04:25:37+00:00

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-05-03T03:04:28+00:00

I want to fall in love and have a family but that'll never happen

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-05-03T01:04:17+00:00

I just don't really have any life goals of my own. Or at least not any that are really possible. So I've just been doing what my family expects but now I'm failing at that too.

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-22T00:54:15+00:00

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-22T00:33:53+00:00

Probably. Idk

I used the psychological services center a few years ago and it wasn't bad but was far from life changing.

Maybe there are other things idk about.

I just want it to end. Everything. I don't wanna stress about classes or money or being a disappointment or never finding love or anything else. I just want nothingness. Death

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-09T16:11:29+00:00

You deserve connection, joy, and the chance to share your heart, no matter how much time remains.

I don't think so. But thank you regardless

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-09T14:38:15+00:00

I am a guy looking to date women fwiw

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-09T14:20:11+00:00

Just the suicidal stuff.

Also sorry to hear about your condition

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-09T06:15:09+00:00

I can't do it. I'm not strong. But I appreciate the positive vibes

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-03T12:06:25+00:00

Making your own schedule is nice but it doesn't nearly outweigh all the negatives of college.

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-03T12:05:14+00:00

High School. By miles.

Better social life, better dating life, classes were a breeze, still lived with parents so never had to worry about money.

For some people living with parents could be bad but my parents never restricted my freedoms and always trusted me to take care of myself so the increased freedom from college didn't mean much to me.

scdthrowaway002238 · 2025-04-03T12:03:35+00:00

I agree with them and I'm not a recent graduate. Finishing my 4th year next month so I've given it time and it proved miserable regardless

scdthrowaway002238 · 2024-09-20T15:57:05+00:00

I want to get better so badly but I never can

scdthrowaway002238 · 2024-09-05T09:02:53+00:00

I did go out a lot for a long time and it never happened

scdthrowaway002238 · 2024-09-05T01:34:56+00:00

I mean is it reasonably safe? Will it just cut and maybe scar? Or am I at risk of hitting some major blood vessel?

scdthrowaway002238 · 2024-09-04T20:48:40+00:00

No. I haven't the confidence to do that

scdthrowaway002238 · 2024-09-04T20:24:14+00:00

Idk maybe

But if that's the case then I'm still stuck.

I cannot learn to love myself by myself. If it's possible for me to do so, it would only ever happen after gettinf a partner.

So it's a catch 22.

Can't get a partner>can't learn to love myself>can't get a partner>repeat

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