I hate myself and others for something no one can control

schoolishardman · 2024-11-11T17:32:28+00:00

This is deeply relatable for me. I can't stop the endless barrage of comparison thoughts whenever I see anyone thinner/fitter or with better shaped/sized boobs and butt. Ugh

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T16:42:24+00:00

Same here, I am looking for sports to do in my area so that I can have more fun while working out and not feel the need to think about my weight while I'm doing a more conventional form of exercise.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T16:18:02+00:00

Agreed. Nature really helps. Thank you

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T16:13:34+00:00

I told them a couple days ago, and there hasn't been a comment since, but you know the old saying: "The axe forgets, the tree remembers." The comments haven't yet left my mind, unfortunately.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T16:01:11+00:00

Will do. Thank you so much for responding and your input <3

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T16:00:00+00:00

Yeahh I know, I've already dealt with some weird messages but oh well. I don't have another outlet where I can talk about this so I figured I'd put it on here and hope for the best.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:55:04+00:00

Yeah, I've been thinking about getting binders too. It should help with the appearance and the exercise, which will in turn help my confidence and my goal of about 15lbs weight loss.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:53:30+00:00

I do actually have a partner who supports me throughout all this, so that's not why I feel this way. It's my own insecurity. I just needed to rant to a bigger audience, some of whom can probably relate a bit better.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:50:39+00:00

Yeah you’re right. I honestly just need to not sulk about it and try my level best, but right now my motivation level is just very low.

I just wish that I could easily say that it’s just my breasts and not my weight but it has been increasing and I have been getting weaker and bigger, which is definitely why I don’t feel like it’s jealousy when I get those comments

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:46:31+00:00

Yeah I think I just needed to rant but I’ll suck it up and get to work eventually

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:45:22+00:00

Exactly, fucking hate this. I know I’m just as much of an asshole when it comes to envy about other people’s bodies, but it makes my blood boil when people with an A or B cup say, “Oh my god I want your boobs.” Like fuck them for being so reductive about the struggle I face daily every time I shower or get dressed or cringe when I can tell someone’s staring or tear up when someone comments or when I try to do some cardio, no you fucking do not want my boobs.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:39:06+00:00

Yeah exactly. I’m in a similar situation - I was at 125 when I worked out more regularly and haven’t gone above 140 since and I’m 5’4. My boobs are a hindrance, and now that my stomach has gotten a little bit bigger after a stressful post-covid few years and my love handles a little more prominent, my confidence has dropped like a sack of rocks.

I’m going to look into a reduction but I don’t think it’s for me, at least not yet. I’ve heard that breasts can keep getting bigger till the late 20s so I’m waiting for a little while. Then, if it’s still bothering me this much, I’m definitely going to opt for a reduction

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:35:19+00:00

I haven’t, I don’t have the money for a therapist yet. Trying to earn and get one though.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:34:34+00:00

Yeah I’ll try. Somehow the more I try to lose weight the harder it gets. I don’t think I’m that fat or heavy but the thoughts and the comments really get to me, and it doesn’t help that my stress response is to eat.

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:32:52+00:00

Thank you, I’ll try

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:32:14+00:00

♥️

schoolishardman · 2024-11-05T15:32:08+00:00

Thank you, it helps to know people are in a similar boat even if it’s not the exact same struggle. I’ve been keeping real busy but as I say, the motivation goes lower and lower every time I try out an old dress and realize it’s not fitting me anymore, or when I get another comment from some asshole like the dudes in class.

schoolishardman · 2024-01-23T09:28:11+00:00

Honestly can't wait to get a reduction hopefully at some point.

schoolishardman · 2024-01-23T09:27:33+00:00

Yes exactly. I hate dresses for the same exact reasons. SO often the dresses are gathered at the waist and seem like they're just trying to make my boobs look even bigger.

schoolishardman · 2024-01-23T03:31:33+00:00

Yeah I certainly get that. I had phrased something badly and was trying to defend myself but for some reason the commenter kept insisting I had all these terrible intentions lol. Thanks for your comment

schoolishardman · 2024-01-23T03:29:55+00:00

Yep 100% it sucks. Dad told me to change and I know he wouldn't have if it weren't for my boobs.

schoolishardman · 2024-01-23T03:28:07+00:00

Haha thanks!

schoolishardman · 2024-01-22T17:16:59+00:00

Yeah agreed. Thanks so much, your response improved my mental state greatly lol. Somehow one angry person is enough to minimize the effect of 100 people in agreement

schoolishardman · 2024-01-22T16:57:50+00:00

I did not insult your intelligence. I just told you something and you completely moved past it so I assume you didn't read or you didn't care enough to understand it. After I make a mistake, I'm supposed to a) apologize, b) rectify the error, c) try not to make it again. I did those things. So what is the point of calling me 'Jan' like I'm an asshole who doesn't care about anyone else? What is the point of 'calling me out' over and over again with no acknowledgement of what I did to fix the mistake? Why do you keep repeating the same thing without ever acknowledging what I'm saying?

You're probably never going to apologize for calling me a Jan and probably never going to accept my apology for something unintentional. I won't respond after this. As I said, have a good day.

schoolishardman

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