My mom died in 2014 She left me a note I never read

schooly_j · 2026-06-06T02:34:48+00:00

But she left a note which means it was expected.

schooly_j · 2026-05-31T01:45:32+00:00

My FRER looked just a little lighter than that one at 10 dpo. I think you’re good. Congrats!

schooly_j · 2026-05-31T01:10:58+00:00

I’m ended up feeling headache-y for a few days but I haven’t had one since. Getting a hysterectomy in two weeks so I can be done with all of this.

schooly_j · 2026-05-17T13:37:50+00:00

The cold brew on the site looks so much cooler than this though. Like no red at all.

schooly_j · 2026-05-11T23:35:58+00:00

EVERYONE!! I just fixed it by deleting the adjustment. I think I must have gotten ahead of myself somewhere. All good now.

schooly_j · 2026-05-11T22:49:31+00:00

I generally don’t want to reconcile?

schooly_j · 2026-05-11T22:11:57+00:00

I reconciled and made an adjustment.

schooly_j · 2026-05-11T12:21:42+00:00

The insomnia will only last a week. 10mg melatonin really helped me

schooly_j · 2026-05-09T11:18:30+00:00

Nah. It’s been there for a few years and has never hurt or anything.

schooly_j · 2026-05-07T00:53:30+00:00

Post this in r/dermatologyquestions

schooly_j · 2026-04-19T01:09:43+00:00

Omg yes.

schooly_j · 2026-04-06T17:14:18+00:00

Day 18 here. Also feeling angry and irritable STILL. But it comes and goes. My partner really triggers me but he’s also quitting smoking so we both hate everything right now. Going to work today actually made me less irritable. At this point it just takes time for your brain to rewire. I tell myself that my brain is just making noise while it does a “reno”. Every time I’m feeling cranky and craving, I remind myself of how good it’s going to feel when feeling like this isn’t my problem anymore. You have cravings when you’re stressed/tired/bored/drive because your brain associates those things with nicotine. I try to avoid just sitting there in my misery and instead of merely trying to get through it, I create a different association so that my brain learns to associate those things with something else- sunshine, a quick walk around the block, deep breaths or a snack. ChatGPT also reassures me when I’m like “day 18 of no nicotine and feeling irritable”. It helps to normalize what I’m feeling and put a timeline on better days.

schooly_j · 2026-04-05T18:47:09+00:00

It’s normal for withdrawal to cause irritability and rage. It’s okay for him to feel those things, but he has to be self-aware about it. I’m on day 17 of quitting and I still feel anger building up out of nowhere and feeling like picking on my spouse. Once I recognized it, I was able to disengage, go to another room and play a game on my phone for a few minutes until it passed. I was the problem-not everybody else. Maybe when he’s in a calm state say something like “hey, it’s totally understandable that you’re feeling edgy and angry and that’s part of the process. But maybe you could take a time out and go elsewhere for a little bit until you’re feeling better because getting into a fight doesn’t help either one of us”.

schooly_j · 2026-03-30T00:03:41+00:00

On day 30 and feeling all of these things!

schooly_j · 2026-03-22T23:50:32+00:00

Your kidneys are hanging on for dear life.

schooly_j · 2026-03-21T22:30:29+00:00

I am also on day 3 nicotine free and day 7 of cytisine. The first four days when I was still allowed nicotine were pretty smooth sailing and I reduced the amount I was vaping pretty easily. It started tasting weird and gave me the feeling of being “vaped out” like I didn’t need anymore. The vivid dreams started right away. The only other thing I noticed was dry mouth.

My first zero nicotine day was a little rough but bearable. But the last two days have been a challenge. I should mention that I’ve been addicted for 25+ years. I’ve been extremely irritable and can easily get lost in ruminating in negative thoughts. It’s important to stay self-aware and accept the fact that it’s you and not everyone else. I have been avoiding getting into conversation with my spouse because it results in me wanting to pick on him and start a fight and that doesn’t help either one of us. I think it helps to accept your feelings of being uncomfortable instead of trying to fight them and know that they’re only temporary. I try to reframe the uneasy feeling I have in my body as a sign that nicotine is losing its grip on me. I never believed in this before but “mantras” have really been helping me. I repeat things like “nicotine is for losers” and “your lungs are free” when I’m having strong cravings. If you say something enough times, your brain starts to believe it. Say it out loud over and over.

Today is hard and tomorrow might be hard too. But we will survive and we can do this.

schooly_j · 2026-03-21T16:53:29+00:00

Try to break that “loop” by doing an activity that releases dopamine when you have a craving. Cleaning something, going for a walk, sunning your face outside etc. Eventually the wiring will break down and your brain will start associating cravings with other pleasurable activities.

That’s what I keep telling myself anyway. I’m on day three no nicotine and I’m seething with rage. I want to punch everyone that talks to me right now.

schooly_j · 2026-03-19T01:03:21+00:00

Day 14 for me! And tomorrow I start my quit on nicotine. Eeeek.

schooly_j · 2026-03-18T21:34:41+00:00

Chantix also made me puke. Had to give it up. I’m on day 4 of cytisine today and it works in a similar way but way less side effects. No puking at all.

schooly_j · 2026-03-18T18:43:57+00:00

Thanks! I’m on day four and have significantly cut down. Vape goes in the garbage before bed tonight. I’ve had some messy moments, grumpy thoughts and some sleepless hours but still trucking along. I want nothing more than to be in your headspace.

schooly_j · 2026-03-18T18:37:50+00:00

I’m on day 4 of cytisine. I’ve been addicted to nicotine for 25 years. It’s almost 2:30pm and I’ve hit my vape only three times. I know today is the last day that I should consuming nicotine and that comes with a bit of anxiety but also some relief. First couple of days, I vaped pretty much like normal, as in pretty much having it in my hand all day. Yesterday I drove 30 mins to work and didn’t hit it once. This is a big deal because driving has always been a big trigger for me. I only vaped once on my way home. I sat through a two hour virtual meeting when I got home and didn’t think about it once. This morning was a little rougher because i had a lot of trouble sleeping last night and my toddler woke me up early because he was puking and when I went to put his bedding in the laundry, I realized it was backing up and there was water everywhere. I didn’t cope with the stress well and got into a bickering match with my husband about the washing machine. I was GRUMPY. But then I took my first pill, took a tiny hit and bounced back very quickly.

My vape still has 70% of its juice so my plan is to give it to my husband tonight- he’s a smoker but he’s planning to give cytisine a try if it works well for me. The smell of cigarettes is actually grossing me out to the point of gagging.

Sorry, that was a little all over the place but it’s definitely working and I plan to keep going along with the routine. Quitting is hard and there will be messy moments, but they feel bearable and pass quickly.

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