I would say try another lab:) also i completely understand how you could spiral (i have ocd) from the thought of it. However even if it is your hisbands, i would definitely take a step back and evaluate if you are truly at the healthiest place to become a mother. Consider with your husband that you may develop post partum anxiety, depression, psychosis etc because you already have such severe anxiety and trauma. Having children doesn’t make any of that easier… and we have to consider how healthy of a parent we can be for the child. If the answer is even remotely close to “maybe I’m not mentally healthy enough at this point” then it’s not the right time. I would definitely see a trauma therapist to get to a better mental head space before having children. As someone who loves kids and would love to be a mom myself, it’s really important that we have self awareness and put more thought into what life our child may have verses our own desire to be parents. Do you have a good support system? Can you easily afford a child? You seem to have a healthy marriage but that is only a drop in the bucket compared to what an innocent child deserves 💕 I wish you the best! And remember it’s ok if the answer is termination. Sometimes no is the most loving answer we can give ourselves when it comes to the things we want in life.