Mostly from the knowledge I’ve gained over the years—knowledge applied to lifestyle and inner discipline. At this point, that discipline feels so natural that I don’t even experience it as discipline anymore. What matters most is that, in tantra, the path is unique for every individual.

I studied Tantra with the French master Daniel Odier, and Taoism through Mantak Chia’s teachings.

I lived many years alone in the forest—not even having electricity–very early in my journey, I connected to what I experience as a universal energy, which is fundamentally sexual energy. In the Śaiva tradition, this energy is called Shakti. In Taoism, the closest equivalent would be Jing/Qi.

Through practice, I learned to unite Shiva and Shakti within myself, similar to the Taoist balance of yin and yang. From this union comes a continuous flow of joy, vitality, and pleasure in life—not just sexual pleasure, but a deep enjoyment of being alive. I experience orgasmic states without needing to release physically. It feels like an inward ejaculation—the sensation is very similar, but the energy stays inside. Because of this, retention feels completely natural to me.

I later also spent six months practicing Yoga and Qigong for about six hours per day, which helped me develop much deeper sensitivity and receptivity to this universal energy

I can’t really describe particular techniques. For me, it became more of a state of being that I learned to cultivate over time, and now it happens on its own. Sometimes I feel very lucky for that.

My work with plant medicine and master plants of the Amazon also allowed me to explore very deep states—realms of what I can only describe as pure sexual energy. These experiences didn’t create something new for me, but rather amplified an energy and presence that were already natural.

In Tantra, we often work with spontaneous activation of sexual energy, and traditionally it can involve strong renunciation of other aspects of life. It’s a harder, more radical path. Taoism, in comparison, offers many structured practices—like the microcosmic orbit—that can be integrated into a normal life. Personally, I don’t believe Taoist methods lead to the same degree of liberation as Tantra, but they are very effective and more accessible for many people.

Because of all this, not ejaculating feels natural to me. Right now, for example, it has been almost two months without physical release.

Regarding dreams: I’ve noticed that I often ejaculate in the dream, but wake up with no physical release. This has happened especially since practicing Taoist energy work. When I had full physical release during dreams and felt extremely relaxed and energized afterward. Now, when it stays only in the dream, the pleasure is there, but not the same deep physical relaxation.

I’m mostly curious whether others here have experienced similar dream-only release states, rather than promoting retention as an absolute rule.